wrong wish

Oh, Dear Father, please please please, let me get accepted to the ### University Online MBA program, Father. Oh, Dear Lord, please make a way for me to get a degree with all of the finances and textbooks and fees and tuition. Oh, Dear Father!!!! I know that You can do it for me. Oh. God, I know...

I don't really believe in god but I need help really badly. I know this is a really wrong wish and hurtful but my brother and I have been abused by our adopted parents for a really long time. Our adopted parents have physically, mentally, verbally, emotionally abused us, and they are...