self-touch

I (female) gave in today after 1 year of not touching myself and I feel great. It declogs my brain and is a stress relief. I can’t help and feel a little bad though but that’s because of Christi airy who inculcated the shame culture around it. Before I did it purely. I don’t know what to think.

So I've never actually had sex, but I have read depraved things, had the most depraved thoughts, touched myself, lusted shamelessly. My spirit is not good. I feel bad being in the presence of good people. Jesus, I give you my life and trust you, not out of ego but out of trust. Help me love you...