self-recognition

In 2026, I need to be proud of how far I’ve come. I don’t give myself enough credit for the things I survived and the lessons I learned. Look back only to see my growth. I am not the same person I was last year.

I went through a hard time and developed a distant avoidant personality where I dissociate from life mostly just barely focusing on life on a surface level, I skim things just getting by and focusing on things that don’t have too much feeling emotion or thought with it, like work and...

I have been getting closer to the Lord and on the weekend I got blacked out drunk, I don’t recall much but have some memories of indecent behaviour, I feel so ashamed and so distraught I can’t seem to move on from it and I just feel unworthy and so disgusted that I didn’t recognise that person...