self-dignity

I’ve been told I’m dishonorable, ignoble, lacking honor or moral integrity etc. I keep belittling humiliating myself, and am self demeaning. Why? It’s like a protective mechanism against rejection pain and criticism. How can I act better?

Please pray for me. I fear being alone so much that I accept behaviors of people in my life that hurt me. I am so fearful of being alone and not being cared for that I tolerate behaviors that aren't fair or aligned with my own beliefs. I let people hurt me over and over because of fear. Pray...