sadness and anxiety

I am a single mom and was caring for my mom 24/7 for 2-years who had cancer and Alzheimer’s and she recently died. She was combative/violent and I feel so broken down after the experience. I am now suffering with so much sadness and anxiety plus I desperately need a job quickly that pays enough...

Dear God please clear my mind from the sadness and anxiety I feel because of my alcohol use and my sleepiness from staying up for two days trying to get my paperwork thrown away at home so that my ### and my ### don't have to do. I need help God please help me at work and please soften the heart...