lack of relationships

I’m just depressed, all I want to do is just lay in bed. Every time I try to do good something just knocks me back down. I’m mentally exhausted. I’m just here .. numb. No friends, no relationship, no trustworthy family. I just have God/Jesus spiritually but physically I’m alone 💔

I loss my mom almost ### years ago and my cat went missing I never saw her again and I was estranged from my brother and we are getting along again. And I feel suicidal because of all this and people scream and yell at me and others, I don't have a job it seems like I won't find one anymore, I...