lack of help

Dear God, Why did I have to go through an experience? I am embarrassed and feel like I was not helped when I needed it most. I worked hard and prepared and still the door closed. I’m thankful you opened another door but still, I struggle. Please help me in Jesus name. Amen

I asked for prayers earlier. I didn’t want to say it but I guess I need to be open. I feel so desperate. I’m so close to ending myself. I am just out of being able to go on literally My stomach is hurting terribly with nothing to do about it. Doctors haven’t helped. I’m about done. Please pray...