emotional numbness

So honestly I may be a bit too far gone. Let’s just say one mistake led to another, but one day I became completely numb, empty and essentially pretty hateful of God after multiple things in my life, including traumatic things, and decided I was going to go a completely different path instead...

Please pray for me I have been feeling spiritually numb, emotional numbness towards everything please pray for me because I am failing to do so myself. I have been not content nor happy about my life please help.

I am suffering from one kind of mental illness because of depression. Lost emotions. Emotional numbness. Lost deep sleep. Filled with dreams. Pls pray that God heal me soon.