blaspheme

I am getting strong compulsions to blaspheme the holy spirit. I don't want to do it!! I know that it's the only sin that God will never ever forgive, and that entering into Heaven is an impossibility if I commit it. Please pray that these compulsions go away!!

I'm struggling to know why I'm still alive, I have no purpose from god and it all came from bullying that I lack purpose in life if god were real he would of proved me right and freed me revealed himself and shown me how to get rid of my demons, I was abducted as a kid and the people I ended up...