bad things happening

PLEASE GOD STOP MY ### WANTING AND WANTING ### AND PRESSURING US TO DO THEM. PLEASE GOD STOP THESE SPIRITS FROM MAKING HER SHOUT A LOT, IT REALLY MAKE ME FEEL ### BEFOR THE OTHER PEOPLE AND REALLY ASHAMED FROM HER BEHAVIOUR, PLEASE TAKE FULL CONTROL OVER HER BEHAVIOUR NOW AND TAKE CONTROL OVER...

I have been attending a church for a year now and I really love it. But I'm so scared something will go wrong there. I've experienced a lot of spiritual abuse in my life. I'm also scared that bad things will happen to the church/members as a result of me being there because sometimes it seems...