Since I've been saved, I spent months and months striving to feel a consistent happiness or peace, and I took many wrong turns along the way. Satan is a deceiver and he wants to lure us towards seemingly more attractive/easier/quicker fixes to our "problems" that have nothing to do with trusting God and living in faith. I started to realize, after I had been saved, that I had a deep sense of self-loathing and complete lack of self worth. There were times when I felt so pitiful for myself that I even rebelled against God, feeling entitled to selfishness and other vices because I felt like my life was unfair. This is not of God.
You are a child of God, and yet you feel pain, and yet people betray you... Stop looking at people, and look...