We hear the deep cry of your heart, and we are grieved by the bondage you describe—yet we rejoice that you have turned to the only One who can break these chains forever. You are not worthless; you were bought with the precious blood of Jesus Christ, and He has a purpose for your life that no amount of failure or sin can erase. The fact that you recognize your need for salvation and lifelong change is evidence that the Holy Spirit is already at work in you. Let us speak truth to you first, then lift you in prayer, for the battle you face is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of darkness (Ephesians 6:12). Yet greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4).
You have named the strongholds: drunkenness, lust, self-hatred, toxicity toward others, and spiritual oppression. These are not just habits—they are sins that separate you from God, and they are tools the enemy uses to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But Jesus came to give you life abundantly! Drunkenness is a deceiver; it promises escape but delivers slavery (Proverbs 20:1, Ephesians 5:18). Lust is a thief; it promises satisfaction but leaves you empty and enslaved (1 Corinthians 6:18, 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5). The toxicity you direct at yourself and others is a lie from the pit of hell—you are not defined by your failures, but by the righteousness of Christ if you surrender to Him (2 Corinthians 5:21). Your parents’ disappointment, while painful, is a reflection of their love for you. But even if they lose faith, God never will (2 Timothy 2:13). He is waiting for you to turn to Him with your whole heart.
The spiritual attacks you describe—the dreams, the sense of lurking spirits—are real, but they are no match for the authority of Jesus. You have already taken the first step by calling on His name. Now you must put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18) and resist the devil, and he *will* flee from you (James 4:7). This starts with repentance: turning away from sin and toward God. It means destroying every idol in your life—alcohol, pornography, bitterness, self-pity—and replacing them with the Word of God, prayer, and fellowship with believers. You cannot do this in your own strength, but through Christ, you can do *all things* (Philippians 4:13).
You mentioned wanting to be a "better partner," but we must lovingly correct this: if you are not married, your focus should not be on a romantic relationship right now. Your first calling is to be a *disciple* of Christ, to crucify the flesh with its passions and desires (Galatians 5:24), and to seek His kingdom above all else (Matthew 6:33). If God calls you to marriage later, He will provide a *godly spouse*—a wife who fears the Lord—when you are walking in obedience. For now, flee from sexual immorality (1 Corinthians 6:18) and pursue holiness. The lust you battle is a fire that will consume you if you feed it, but if you starve it by filling your mind with Scripture and surrounding yourself with accountable brothers in Christ, you *will* overcome it.
As for being a better uncle, father, and member of society—this starts with surrender. A man who is drunk or enslaved to lust cannot lead others. But a man who is sober, self-controlled, and filled with the Spirit *can* (Titus 2:2-8). Your future is not thrown away unless you choose to keep clinging to sin. God specializes in redeeming what is broken. Look at David—an adulterer and murderer who repented and was called a man after God’s own heart (Acts 13:22). Look at Paul—a persecutor of the church who became its greatest missionary (1 Timothy 1:15-16). Your story is not over. It can begin *today*.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of this precious soul who has cried out for salvation in the name of Jesus. Lord, we thank You that You hear him, that You see his brokenness, and that You are mighty to save. We rebuked the spirits of drunkenness, lust, self-destruction, and despair that have tormented him, and we command them to flee in the name of Jesus Christ. No weapon formed against him shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), for he belongs to You.
Father, we ask for a *supernatural* deliverance. Break every chain of addiction—alcohol, pornography, toxic thoughts—by the power of Your Spirit. Fill him with a *holy* hunger and thirst for righteousness (Matthew 5:6). Let him taste and see that You are good (Psalm 34:8), and that the pleasures of sin are nothing compared to the joy of knowing You.
Lord, forgive him for every sin he has committed, known and unknown. Wash him clean by the blood of Jesus (1 John 1:9). Restore his mind, which has been corrupted by the enemy’s lies. Let him meditate on Your Word day and night (Psalm 1:2), so that his thoughts align with Yours. Give him dreams and visions from *You*, not from the enemy. Surround him with Your angels (Psalm 91:11) and let him sleep in peace, for You neither slumber nor sleep (Psalm 121:4).
Father, we pray for his parents. Heal the wounds of disappointment and restore their hope. Give them wisdom to love him well, and give him humility to receive their guidance. Let this be a testimony of Your redeeming power in their family.
Raise up godly men to disciple him—men who will speak truth, hold him accountable, and walk with him in this journey. Open doors for employment that will provide for his needs and give him purpose, but let him seek *Your* kingdom first, trusting that all these things will be added to him (Matthew 6:33).
Most of all, Lord, let him *know* You. Not just know *about* You, but experience Your presence so deeply that sin loses its appeal. Let him fall in love with Jesus, the One who gave everything for him. Fill him with Your Spirit so that the fruit of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23) overflows in his life.
We declare that he is *not* worthless—he is fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). He is a new creation in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17), and old things *have* passed away. The enemy has no claim on him. His future is bright in You, Lord. You have plans to prosper him, not to harm him—plans to give him hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
We bind every lie of the enemy that says he cannot change. By Your stripes, he *is* healed (Isaiah 53:5). We loose the power of the Holy Spirit to transform him from the inside out. Let this be the day he turns from darkness to light, from the power of Satan to God, that he may receive forgiveness of sins and an inheritance among those who are sanctified by faith in Jesus (Acts 26:18).
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
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Brother, this is your moment. The old life is behind you; the new has begun. Here are your next steps:
1. **Repent and confess**: Get on your knees right now and confess every sin to God. Name them specifically. Ask for His forgiveness and turn away from them.
2. **Destroy the idols**: Delete any pornography, throw out the alcohol, and remove anything that tempts you to sin. If you live with others, ask them to hold you accountable.
3. **Fill the void**: Replace sin with Scripture. Start reading the Gospel of John and Psalms daily. Memorize verses to combat temptation (e.g., 1 Corinthians 10:13 for temptation, Philippians 4:13 for strength).
4. **Find fellowship**: You cannot do this alone. Find a Bible-believing church *today* and connect with mature believers. If you don’t know where to start, we can help guide you.
5. **Serve others**: Shift your focus from yourself to serving—volunteer, help your family, or minister to others. This breaks the cycle of self-pity.
6. **Pray without ceasing**: Talk to God constantly. When temptation comes, pray immediately. The enemy flees at the name of Jesus.
You are not fighting for victory; you are fighting *from* victory because Christ has already won. Rise up, brother. Your Redeemer lives.
Thank You Lord and thank you guys.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
