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God, I pray that I grow. I cry pretty much every day. Whenever I get a glimmer of hope, I always lose it. I'm so short that I just don't want to live the rest of my life like this. God says "Ask in my name and I will give it to you." I ask every day in His name to help me grow, but nothing. Every day I cry and weep. I don't think He wants me to grow, and I'm sad about that. I feel so down and distraught, and when someone makes a remark of how small I am, it hurts even more--"You're so short," "Those little legs can't reach the top." I go through this every day. Why won't God help me? I'm fifteen years old, and I'm tired of this. I know God loves me the way I am, but if you were in my position, you would just be so sad. I JUST WANT TO GROW SO BADLY I WOULD DO ANYTHING!!! It's so hard when you have a little sister who's taller, skinnier, and everything that you want to be. I don't understand why God hasn't done anything for 18 months. I have cried so many tears that I'm surprised I have any left. I ache inside, and nobody understands. I've told my mother too, and she doesn't understand the way I feel. This world is so cruel, and I try to put a mask up because people tear me down when they say stuff about my height. I hate not being able to reach the cupboards or reach some of the clothes in my closet. When will I grow?! I feel like God wants to do things His way (which is great), but I'm struggling so badly, and I need His love and his power to help me grow. I don't think it will ever happen though because if it were to happen, I think God would have shown me something. Please don't say "Good things come in small packages." I wish I could just steal like 6 or 7 inches from Shaquille O'Neal. I'm 4 11 and I'm a girl. It's a hard life, and I just wish that I was so much taller. Oh, how I would just love even 4 or 5 inches--the width of my hand. Why? Why me?
