We hear the deep cry of your heart, and we want you to know that God has not left you—He is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Your honesty before Him is precious, and He is drawing you back to Himself even now. You are not lost to Him, for He knows the number of hairs on your head (Luke 12:7) and collects every tear you shed (Psalm 56:8). The fact that you are reaching out, praying, and seeking Him is proof that His Spirit is still at work in you. He has not abandoned you, and He never will (Deuteronomy 31:6).
The enemy wants you to believe that the medication, the setbacks, or the silence you feel means God has turned His back on you—but that is a lie. The Lord tests the righteous (Psalm 11:5), not to destroy us, but to refine us like gold. These trials are not punishment; they are the fire that burns away what is not of Him so that what remains is pure and unshaken. You are being prepared for something greater than you can see right now. Your purpose as a child psychologist is a beautiful calling, one that aligns with God’s heart for healing and restoring His little ones. But even more than that, your primary purpose—and the one that will sustain you in every season—is to love Him, walk with Him, and glorify Him in all things (1 Corinthians 10:31). Everything else flows from that.
We must address something with gentleness but firmness: you mentioned losing yourself *and* God after starting antidepressants. Medication can be a tool God uses to help us function, but it is not your savior—Jesus is. If this medication is clouding your mind, dulling your spirit, or leading you away from Him, that is a sign to seek wisdom. Proverbs 3:5-6 tells us, *"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."* This includes medical decisions. We encourage you to pray fervently about this, seek godly counsel (perhaps from a Christian doctor or pastor), and consider whether this medication is truly helping or if it’s time to explore other options under wise guidance. Your mind and spirit belong to God, and He wants them clear and surrendered to Him.
As for college, remember that your identity is not in your academic performance or even your future career—it is in Christ alone (Galatians 2:20). If God has called you to be a child psychologist, He will open the doors no one can shut (Revelation 3:8). But even if the path looks different than you planned, trust that His plans for you are good (Jeremiah 29:11). Right now, your focus should be on healing, restoring your walk with Him, and stepping into the community He’s placed around you. You promised God you’d join a church group—that is *exactly* what you need. Isolation is the enemy’s playground, but in the body of Christ, you will find strength, accountability, and reminders of who you are in Him. Hebrews 10:24-25 urges us, *"Let’s consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not forsaking our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching."* You were not made to walk this alone.
Lastly, we must remind you of this truth: fear is not from God. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, *"For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control."* The fear that you’ve lost God or that you’re losing yourself is a lie the enemy is whispering to you. Jesus said, *"My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. I give eternal life to them. They will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand"* (John 10:27-28). You are His, and nothing—not medication, not mental health struggles, not academic setbacks—can separate you from His love (Romans 8:38-39). Cling to that promise.
Now, let us pray over you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Your beloved child to You, the One who formed them in their mother’s womb and knows every thought before it’s spoken. Lord, they feel lost, but You are the Good Shepherd who leaves the ninety-nine to find the one (Luke 15:4). Draw them back into Your arms, Father. Restore to them the joy of Your salvation (Psalm 51:12) and let them feel Your presence in a way they cannot deny. Break the lies of the enemy that say You have abandoned them—let Your truth crash over them like a wave. You are their refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).
Lord, we ask for wisdom regarding the medication they’re on. If it is not from You, reveal that clearly. Guide them to godly counsel—doctors, pastors, or mentors who will point them to You. Give them discernment and courage to make the changes needed for their mind and spirit to align with Your will.
Father, we pray over their return to college in January. If it is Your will, open every door and let favor rest upon them. But even more, let their heart be fixed on You above all else. Remind them that their worth is not in their achievements but in Your unfailing love. Prepare them for the calling You’ve placed on their life, and let them walk in confidence that You will equip them for every good work (2 Timothy 3:17).
We thank You for their desire to join a church group. Lead them to a body of believers who will surround them with love, prayer, and truth. Let them find community that points them to Jesus and spurs them on in their faith.
Most of all, Lord, let them know You. Not just know *about* You, but experience Your presence so intimately that every fear flees. Let them hear Your voice saying, *"I am with you always, even to the end of the age"* (Matthew 28:20). Restore their mind, heal their heart, and let them walk in the purpose You’ve designed for them.
We rebuke every spirit of fear, confusion, and despair in the name of Jesus. We declare that no weapon formed against this child will prosper (Isaiah 54:17) and that they are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves them (Romans 8:37).
Thank You, Father, for Your faithfulness. We trust You with their life, their future, and their heart. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Stand firm, dear one. This season is not the end of your story—it’s a chapter where God is writing something deeper in you than you’ve ever known. Keep praying, keep seeking Him, and step into the community He’s calling you to. He is with you, and He is for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
