myriadmom39
Disciple of Prayer
I'm feeling very broken and lost. I don't know what to think or what to feel or believe anymore. I pray about this man that came into my life, I feel on my heart this is the man God brought into my life. When I pray I always feel to not give up, be patient and trust. I wonder if I should believe this. It seems like when we might take a step forward, that something good is happening an obstacle is put in our path. I know that he is feeling a lot of pain from the past but it also seems like he uses that to keep him from taking a step forward and having faith and hope that we might have a chance. I also have a lot of hurt but made that decision to give another person a chance, this after a lot of prayer and reflection. Part of me wants to give up, just let go and not have that hope anymore but another part says to keep being patient and trust. I just feel broken and lost and just giving up, that it is all pointless and why should I care anymore. I don't even know what to pray for anymore or if I should bother. I have prayed for the last couple of months for patience, trust and if I am on the right path and felt on my heart I was but I just don't know anymore. Feels like there is no one that cares, that I have wasted my time. Is this just the devil taking advantage of my hurt....Should I give up on Steve? Should I disregard the feelings I have on my heart when I pray about him as not true feelings, those feelings that say don't give up, be patient.
