Utter Confusion! :/

[JFSD]

I'm in a very confusing situation and need to make a decision very soon!

I have two options;

1)work really really hard on topics I don't enjoy for the remainder of this year in hopes of eventually getting a teaching job in Japan (as it apparently requires and undergraduate degree)

2)Continue studying Japanese part time but not get any degree from it, using my new extra time to start making art / creating again, pursuing a creative career course.

My dilemma is this:

I've been gifted artistically since childhood and have been told by many people to pursue that, even though it makes no promise of a secure future or financial security.

I've also been born it seems with a huge passion for Japan and it's language, and I believe my spiritual gift is teaching.

But the two dreams cannot coexist it seems? I'm so confused because I love both ideas and I'm gifted in both, and I can only manage one (though admittedly the first option would be harder) and neither seems to me more Godly than the other, so I can't make a moral decision. I desperately want clarity and don't seem to receive it!

I was also told today that from now on it will be harder to get into University, should I leave and wish to return...

What on earth am I here to do???

I have no idea what my purpose is, but above describes the things that I love.

Please, if anyone has insights on this or wouldn't mind praying for me, I'd greatly appreciate it.

 

[simpleB]

Don't look at the immediate. God will grant the desire of your heart if they will glorify him. Set some goals. 1yr, 3yr, 5yr. Once you have set them. Set objectives under each goal. Then under the objective set what it will take for your to achieve that objective. You can realize both dreams. Using one to enforce the other. One to inspire the other.

James 1:8

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways.

Rom 14:22

Hast thou faith? have it to thyself before God. Happy is he that condemneth not himself in that thing which he alloweth.

Ps 37:4-5

Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

Phil 4:13

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

2 Tim 2:5

And if a man also strive for masteries, yet is he not crowned, except he strive lawfully. No short cuts.

I am preparing to go on a journey. but I cannot leave until I have mapped out the route I need to take. And so it is with life. Someone once told me that success with the progressive realization of a worthy goal. You will be a success as you progress toward your goals.

May the Lord grant you wisdom and reveal the way of success for you. In Jesus's name Amen.