Thoelor
Disciple of Prayer
Hello everyone my name is ###. It’s a long read so please take your time. Our whole building has been temporarily vacant since last month for repairs. We had no choice but to go to a hotel and stay there for a while. We are now in June ### and the building still has vacant signs on the door and they changed the entrance lock.
I called the landlord yesterday and I text him yesterday but so far I got no reply. Not even from the inspector. The hotel we are staying in is not a luxury hotel but it is a blessing from Jesus Christ because it’s nice and clean with caring workers and we have a big room and a big bed we share. My mother in her 70s can’t walk long distances but she enjoys staying at this hotel and she feels peaceful and it keeps my mentally disabled brother calm.
The problem is that it’s taking a long time for them to open the building so we can return. We have stayed in this hotel since May and now we only have a few days left because the money is going low. I applied for housing and I was never selected. I do not want to go to any shelters because from what I read in the reviews and I was told the shelters in NY are terrible. I do not want to take any chances going there. If it was only me going to the shelter, then that’s fine but I do not want to take my old mother and my disabled brother to the shelter.
It’s horrible and dirty with suspicious people mixed in it and I don’t want to take my mother there. Unfortunately that’s our last option or else we are going to end up in the streets homeless. I talked to Jesus Christ everyday, having conversations with him and also calling for his help. I’m trying to get close to him more than ever. I started reading the Bible on the Bible app during the hotel stay but I stopped because I was upset and worried about the apartment problem and God not doing anything about it.
I did try to stay positive and keep my faith but because of my past experience with God, Jesus Christ never talking to me or giving me miracles and not even ideas, I just go back to negative and sadness. It’s not fair at all because I’m running out of time here and I am on my own. No one can help me except for Jesus Christ because he’s all I have.
I’ve been praying to Jesus Christ to give my mom enough money so we can stay at that hotel until our apartment is fixed. My mom has so much faith in the lord and always praises him and gives him credit. I’m still waiting for that prayer to be answered and it’s killing me. I do not want to take my mom to risky shelters with awful staff workers and horrible conditions.
I tried talking to God but he never removes the weight on me. Please pray for my prayers to be answered. So God can do something about this because I may just end up going to the mental hospital to avoid suicide instead. I never doubted Jesus Christ capable of giving miracles but I don’t know if he will ever help me. I did all can and I am tired out from depression. I can’t take this anymore.
I called the landlord yesterday and I text him yesterday but so far I got no reply. Not even from the inspector. The hotel we are staying in is not a luxury hotel but it is a blessing from Jesus Christ because it’s nice and clean with caring workers and we have a big room and a big bed we share. My mother in her 70s can’t walk long distances but she enjoys staying at this hotel and she feels peaceful and it keeps my mentally disabled brother calm.
The problem is that it’s taking a long time for them to open the building so we can return. We have stayed in this hotel since May and now we only have a few days left because the money is going low. I applied for housing and I was never selected. I do not want to go to any shelters because from what I read in the reviews and I was told the shelters in NY are terrible. I do not want to take any chances going there. If it was only me going to the shelter, then that’s fine but I do not want to take my old mother and my disabled brother to the shelter.
It’s horrible and dirty with suspicious people mixed in it and I don’t want to take my mother there. Unfortunately that’s our last option or else we are going to end up in the streets homeless. I talked to Jesus Christ everyday, having conversations with him and also calling for his help. I’m trying to get close to him more than ever. I started reading the Bible on the Bible app during the hotel stay but I stopped because I was upset and worried about the apartment problem and God not doing anything about it.
I did try to stay positive and keep my faith but because of my past experience with God, Jesus Christ never talking to me or giving me miracles and not even ideas, I just go back to negative and sadness. It’s not fair at all because I’m running out of time here and I am on my own. No one can help me except for Jesus Christ because he’s all I have.
I’ve been praying to Jesus Christ to give my mom enough money so we can stay at that hotel until our apartment is fixed. My mom has so much faith in the lord and always praises him and gives him credit. I’m still waiting for that prayer to be answered and it’s killing me. I do not want to take my mom to risky shelters with awful staff workers and horrible conditions.
I tried talking to God but he never removes the weight on me. Please pray for my prayers to be answered. So God can do something about this because I may just end up going to the mental hospital to avoid suicide instead. I never doubted Jesus Christ capable of giving miracles but I don’t know if he will ever help me. I did all can and I am tired out from depression. I can’t take this anymore.