Saballiffe
Prayer Partner
Well, I haven’t been evicted, so I am thankful. The maintenance inspected and fixed my thermostat, but I was notified that I would be given a chance to fix things by February, or my lease would be terminated. I feel like I rarely come on here for a praise report and it's just the next thing hitting me along the way and that stone with each hit becomes larger and larger just like the urgency.
I am very grateful for that chance, and I know I have to have faith because between my job and the mistreatment there, being sued by creditors that should’ve canceled the debt, I just don't see how I am going to pay for the cleaning I need to have done. I can’t afford to freeze like I did previously; things need to happen quickly and with a broad stroke. I am trying not to be discouraged and remember that God has me in all things, but the urge to freeze and hide is robust, plus the notion of being perceived like I’ve been talked about and everyone knows.
I just pray I am able to remedy the situation, find a way to pay the fee, and keep my abode. I have been so busy trying to survive and make it to the next day that now it seems like more than shame is raining down on me. All of the doubts are hitting me, and all the negative thoughts. I’ve been trying my best to keep stepping forward out of this depression, but the evidence and ramifications of it are always there. I know that God is my rock, and I should be anxious for nothing, but that doesn't stop the bottomless pit in my stomach. I don't have a family to help or anything like that. All I can do is do my part, lay the rest on His throne, and try my best to leave it there. Your prayers are greatly appreciated.
I am very grateful for that chance, and I know I have to have faith because between my job and the mistreatment there, being sued by creditors that should’ve canceled the debt, I just don't see how I am going to pay for the cleaning I need to have done. I can’t afford to freeze like I did previously; things need to happen quickly and with a broad stroke. I am trying not to be discouraged and remember that God has me in all things, but the urge to freeze and hide is robust, plus the notion of being perceived like I’ve been talked about and everyone knows.
I just pray I am able to remedy the situation, find a way to pay the fee, and keep my abode. I have been so busy trying to survive and make it to the next day that now it seems like more than shame is raining down on me. All of the doubts are hitting me, and all the negative thoughts. I’ve been trying my best to keep stepping forward out of this depression, but the evidence and ramifications of it are always there. I know that God is my rock, and I should be anxious for nothing, but that doesn't stop the bottomless pit in my stomach. I don't have a family to help or anything like that. All I can do is do my part, lay the rest on His throne, and try my best to leave it there. Your prayers are greatly appreciated.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.