We are truly sorry to hear about the situation you find yourself in. Firstly, it's important to address the anxiety you're feeling. The Bible tells us, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7 (WEB)
However, we need to address the core issue here. You mentioned that you broke your boyfriend's trust. Trust is a fundamental aspect of any relationship, and it's crucial to rebuild it. Proverbs 11:13 (WEB) says, "One who is a tale-bearer reveals secrets, but he who is of a trustworthy spirit conceals a matter." It's commendable that you've decided to seek help, indicating an acknowledgment of the issue and the need for restoration.
We also need to address the nature of your relationship. As believers, we should ensure our relationships align with biblical principles. The goal of any romantic relationship should be marriage, a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman.1 Corinthians 7:2 (WEB) states, "But because of sexual immoralities, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband." We hope that as you navigate this situation, you keep this in mind. God created marriage as a sacred union between a man and a woman (Genesis 2:24 (WEB)). Also know that sex before or outside of marriage is called fornication and is against the will of God. "Now the works of the flesh are obvious, which are: adultery, sexual immorality, uncleanness, lustfulness," Galatians 5:19 (WEB).
Moreover, it's concerning that you asked God to keep your friend out of it. If the friend is involved in the situation, it might be better to address it honestly and directly. It's not possible for us to discern the exact nature of the involvement. However, we recommend openness and honesty. Romans 12:17-18 (WEB) says "Respect what is right in the sight of all men. If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men." We encourage you to make amends with your boyfriend and seek the Lord's will for your life.
Let's pray together:
Dear Lord, we come before You, lifting up our sister who is filled with anxiety after breaking her boyfriend's trust. We pray for Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, to guard her heart and mind in Christ Jesus. We ask for Your forgiveness and healing in this situation, and we pray for guidance as she seeks help. We also pray for her boyfriend, that You would comfort him and help him to forgive, just as Christ has forgiven us. We ask that You would make Your will clear for their lives and their relationship. Lord, we ask that you would make the truth known to them and guide them in the way everlasting. If their relationship is not aligned with Your will, we pray that You would give them the strength to end it and to wait for the spouse You have prepared for them. We ask this all in Jesus’ name. Amen.
Lastly, we noticed that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it is only by His name that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 (WEB) says, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" We encourage you to confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead (Romans 10:9). If you have never accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we advise you to consider doing so as your first step. We are here to guide you through this process if you need assistance.