seekingmercy
Faithful Servant
Today I am letting go of every bitterness and anger in my life.
1. I forgive MM for lying to me, misleading me, cheating me. I forgive him for treating me the way he did. In my heart there is still bitterness where I hope he gets married, is happy, has a daughter and she meets a guy like him. But I come to you God to help me let go of this hate and bittwrness that has consumed my life. I let go of the wrongs he has done to me, I am letting go of the anger. Help me cleanse my mind of all his thoughts and all anger against him. It was this anger that didn't allow me to see what was in front of me, and knocked on my door every night. Please help me let it go.
2. I forgive my brother for what he did. I let go of the anger against him. He made a mistake. I let go of my anger towards him.
3. I let go of my anger towards SM for dwelling in my past. For coming into my life when I was weak and making me weaker. I know that wasn't his intention, but he couldn't handle some things.
4. Finally, I let go of my anger towards you. Anger with you has been the most difficult to deal with, because people make mistakes, and I don't except you to mislead me. Signs and blessings are only when good things happen. I don't know why despite my prayers for not letting things happen, you let them happen. I prayed to you to show a sign of progress or end my relationship with MM. You did. I didn't realize the gift you gave me by getting me out of that dysfunctional relationship which ate away at my confidence and happiness. Thank you for that. I came to you and told you that I am confused about SM, he deserves a good life, and I know I like him but I won't initiate anything, and I asked you to not initiate anything if it will not end well. It did happen. He gave me my happiness and confidence back. For the first time in years I felt like there was a person in my life I could completely and truly depend on. I got angry with you the moment my past reared it's head and made this difficult. And I have been angry with you. It has become so difficult that now it is impossible, and both of us are suffering. We are suffering because of MM but he is happy and carefree. All this while I only thought of my pain, but I also understand his pain. So now I am letting go of my anger with you too. I don't know what your plan was for getting me involved in lousy situations like this, and getting SM involved like this. Both of us are mentally screwed up, and physically unwell. But I let it all go today. Today I take a vow not to think of the past or the future. Not the past that makes me sad or the past that makes me happy. I vow to not worry about my future. Whatever happens, it will happen. I will focus only on today. And everyday I will ensure today is well and peaceful and calm.
Life can be very easy and beautiful for me. I need to stop dwelling on these things and feel betrayed, and I will be fine. If you still consider me your child and you care for me, help me in this. Make me whole and complete again. And make this process easy. Thank you.
1. I forgive MM for lying to me, misleading me, cheating me. I forgive him for treating me the way he did. In my heart there is still bitterness where I hope he gets married, is happy, has a daughter and she meets a guy like him. But I come to you God to help me let go of this hate and bittwrness that has consumed my life. I let go of the wrongs he has done to me, I am letting go of the anger. Help me cleanse my mind of all his thoughts and all anger against him. It was this anger that didn't allow me to see what was in front of me, and knocked on my door every night. Please help me let it go.
2. I forgive my brother for what he did. I let go of the anger against him. He made a mistake. I let go of my anger towards him.
3. I let go of my anger towards SM for dwelling in my past. For coming into my life when I was weak and making me weaker. I know that wasn't his intention, but he couldn't handle some things.
4. Finally, I let go of my anger towards you. Anger with you has been the most difficult to deal with, because people make mistakes, and I don't except you to mislead me. Signs and blessings are only when good things happen. I don't know why despite my prayers for not letting things happen, you let them happen. I prayed to you to show a sign of progress or end my relationship with MM. You did. I didn't realize the gift you gave me by getting me out of that dysfunctional relationship which ate away at my confidence and happiness. Thank you for that. I came to you and told you that I am confused about SM, he deserves a good life, and I know I like him but I won't initiate anything, and I asked you to not initiate anything if it will not end well. It did happen. He gave me my happiness and confidence back. For the first time in years I felt like there was a person in my life I could completely and truly depend on. I got angry with you the moment my past reared it's head and made this difficult. And I have been angry with you. It has become so difficult that now it is impossible, and both of us are suffering. We are suffering because of MM but he is happy and carefree. All this while I only thought of my pain, but I also understand his pain. So now I am letting go of my anger with you too. I don't know what your plan was for getting me involved in lousy situations like this, and getting SM involved like this. Both of us are mentally screwed up, and physically unwell. But I let it all go today. Today I take a vow not to think of the past or the future. Not the past that makes me sad or the past that makes me happy. I vow to not worry about my future. Whatever happens, it will happen. I will focus only on today. And everyday I will ensure today is well and peaceful and calm.
Life can be very easy and beautiful for me. I need to stop dwelling on these things and feel betrayed, and I will be fine. If you still consider me your child and you care for me, help me in this. Make me whole and complete again. And make this process easy. Thank you.