Anonymous
Beloved of All
I'm done believing in the fairy tale of love at first site, soul mates, and marriage. Its time to grow up. I wrote letters to my future wife but it was made clear to me that despite how much I try to believe it's real that someone is out there for me, but harsh reality days just because I want it and believe it can happen, the truth is God is not obligated to give me a wife. Even if it is the desire of my heart. So I give up. I kept myself a virgin for nothing, and write those letters in vain. Romance is for children and does not exist in reality. It's time for me to let go if my desires and come to grips with reality. Marriage does not happen for everyone, only if God so chooses to bless someone with it. And we are all gonna die someday so what does it matter. I'm tired of trying to denigh the reality that God will never bless me with marriage, and will never give me a female compainion. It's time for me to grow up. Pray that I can move on now and never look back. Pray that I can be strong enough to deal with this life I have to live. I don't like it, I'm not happy but I don't have a choice, it's God's despite how I feel so thank you for your support and God bless you all. I hope something changes, but probably not, but God's will be done at my expense I guess. I'm just a useless pawn. I hope God gives everyone else a happy life.
