Ashaeltorath

Disciple of Prayer
I told you, but over and over you said my prayers would be answered. I have less than ### in my bank account after paying late cc bill. I get paid Fri, but out of ### paycheck I have to pay ### for my room, I have to renew auto registration on my car that's been broken down for months. Have been drained by rental cars and Lyft rides. I but minimal groceries. My paycheck will not cover all the above. I will have to call in sick to avoid having to pay for Lyft rides or another rental. I also have my monthly storage fee, another couple of ### dollars. I have not been able to gain any ground over the last 4 years. My birthday is ### but there is NOTHING happy about it. By ###, I will have no money. I have been hit and knocked down constantly and EVERYTHING is sabotaged. I try my best but it's never good enough, never has been. I am tired of being the family scapegoat...the older I get, the worse things become. Before renewing my car registration I have to get it inspected. I can't get it inspected because the car isn't running because I can't afford to fix it and I certainly can't afford another car. It's so easy for y'all to tell everyone "don't worry, your prayers will be answered". Well, most of the time prayers aren't answered. That's just the way it is. That's called "life". I told you I probably won't make it to my ### bday on ###. I may make it by ### but not long after that. If God really loved me, I wouldn't be cursed to be alone, wouldn't be ostracized, hated, and alienated by my family
 
We hear the deep pain, exhaustion, and despair in your words, and our hearts ache with you. You are carrying burdens that feel unbearable, financial strain, isolation, family wounds, and the weight of feeling unseen and unheard by God. We want you to know that your suffering matters to Him, even when it feels like He is silent. The psalmist cried out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from helping me, and from the words of my groaning?" (Psalm 22:1). You are not alone in this cry.

First, we must address the lie that God does not love you. Scripture declares, "For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from God’s love which is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38-39). His love is not measured by your circumstances but by the cross, where Jesus bore your pain, your rejection, and your curse. You are not cursed, you are deeply loved, even when it feels impossible to believe.

We also rebuke the spirit of despair that whispers you will not make it. Jesus said, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly" (John 10:10). The enemy wants you to believe your story ends in lack and loneliness, but God is the God of redemption. He sees the broken car, the empty bank account, the family that has failed you, and the exhaustion in your soul. He is not distant, He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).

We must also speak truth about prayer. You are right that prayers are not always answered in the way or timing we expect, but that does not mean they go unheard. Jesus taught us to pray, "Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven" (Matthew 6:10). Sometimes God’s answer is "not yet" or "I have something better," even when we cannot see it. But we also acknowledge that the Christian life is not a promise of ease, it is a call to trust God in the midst of hardship. "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33).

Now, let us pray over you:

Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of our dear brother/sister, lifting up their pain, their weariness, and their broken heart. Lord, You see every detail, the empty bank account, the broken car, the family that has wounded them, and the weight of feeling forgotten. We ask You to be their Provider, their Comforter, and their Strength. Father, open doors no one can shut, provide for their needs in ways they cannot yet imagine, and surround them with people who will love and support them as You do.

We rebuke the spirit of lack and despair in Jesus’ name. We declare that this is not the end of their story. You are the God who makes a way where there seems to be no way, and we ask You to make that way clear. Heal their heart from the rejection and scapegoating they have endured. Remind them of their worth in Your eyes, that they are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).

Lord, if they do not yet know You as Savior, we pray they would surrender their life to Jesus Christ, the only One who can save and redeem. Help them to see that their identity is not in their circumstances or their family’s treatment of them, but in Christ alone. Give them the strength to keep going, one day at a time, and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).

We also pray for wisdom in their finances. Show them what to prioritize, where to cut back, and how to steward what You provide. If there are resources or people You want to bring into their life to help, make it clear. And if there are steps they need to take, whether it’s seeking help from a church, selling possessions, or finding temporary work, give them the courage to act.

Father, we ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who bore our sorrows and carries our burdens. We trust You to move in this situation, and we thank You for Your faithfulness, even when we cannot see it. Amen.

Friend, we know this is hard. We know it feels like the walls are closing in. But we urge you not to give up. God has not abandoned you, and your life has purpose. Reach out to a local church or a trusted believer, you do not have to carry this alone. If you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please call a crisis hotline or talk to someone immediately. You are valued, and your story is not over.

We will continue to stand in the gap for you, believing God for breakthrough. Hold on. His timing is perfect, even when it doesn’t feel like it. "Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint" (Isaiah 40:31).
 
We hear how bone-tired you are, not just from the math that doesn't add up, but from years of being knocked down and feeling like the family scapegoat. When you write "this is it," we take that seriously. If you are in immediate danger or the weight is telling you you won't make it to your birthday, please stop and reach your local emergency services right now. For free, confidential support any time, you can find a helpline in your country at findahelpline.com. You are not alone in this moment.

The exhaustion in your words is real. You have been dealing with a broken car that needs an inspection it cannot get, a paycheck that's already spent before it arrives, and a deep ache of being pushed aside by the people who should have your back. When every door feels bolted shut, the mind can narrow until there seems to be only one escape. That is not weakness, it's the tunnel vision that extreme stress creates. But it is not the whole picture, even though it feels absolute right now.

We wish we could untangle all of it at once. Since the car and its costs are draining you fastest, would it be possible to make one five-minute call to the auto registration office? Some jurisdictions have hardship extensions or waivers for vehicles that aren't operational. A quick, calm explanation might at least pause one item on the pile. We mention that not because it fixes everything, but because when things feel impossible, even one small space to breathe can matter.

None of this, the constant sabotage, the loneliness, the money that never stretches, means God hates you or that you are cursed. It means you are carrying far too much, much of it not of your making. We are sorry the people who should have stood with you have instead made you the target. That pain is deep, and you deserved better.

Jesus, hold this one steady when the ground feels like it's crumbling. Cut through the lie that no one cares and nothing can change. Protect their life when despair closes in, and bring them one small, tangible mercy this week, just a little light, a bit of relief. Surround them with someone who will truly see them and not use them. We ask this in Your name, trusting You for the next breath and the next step.
 
I told you, but over and over you said my prayers would be answered. I have less than ### in my bank account after paying late cc bill. I get paid Fri, but out of ### paycheck I have to pay ### for my room, I have to renew auto registration on my car that's been broken down for months. Have been drained by rental cars and Lyft rides. I but minimal groceries. My paycheck will not cover all the above. I will have to call in sick to avoid having to pay for Lyft rides or another rental. I also have my monthly storage fee, another couple of ### dollars. I have not been able to gain any ground over the last 4 years. My birthday is ### but there is NOTHING happy about it. By ###, I will have no money. I have been hit and knocked down constantly and EVERYTHING is sabotaged. I try my best but it's never good enough, never has been. I am tired of being the family scapegoat...the older I get, the worse things become. Before renewing my car registration I have to get it inspected. I can't get it inspected because the car isn't running because I can't afford to fix it and I certainly can't afford another car. It's so easy for y'all to tell everyone "don't worry, your prayers will be answered". Well, most of the time prayers aren't answered. That's just the way it is. That's called "life". I told you I probably won't make it to my ### bday on ###. I may make it by ### but not long after that. If God really loved me, I wouldn't be cursed to be alone, wouldn't be ostracized, hated, and alienated by my family
Great! That's a bad omen! How fitting! Your site just cut off my prayer request. It is obvious that I am not meant to live much longer. I sure God would have killed me with my sleep apnea or by that alligator ### years ago.i cannot go out this way so I have to go out by the only option left to me. I had 3 people I have maintained contact with, none live near me. In feeling the obvious end approaching, I ended contact with those 3 people 3 weeks ago and have ignored their attempts to contact me. I'm soaring them. Eventually they'll figure it out. I'm sure this site is AI so everything's been a waste of time anyway. I can't even drive to the place of my choosing to end because it's in the mountains at the only peak one can drive to in north America. It's always been my favorite spot. That means I have to end it in the hotel room...how fitting! Or, I'll have to walk to some secluded spot that is better than a hotel room. Though I've battled thoughts of suicide ever since I was ### years old, after ### years, it is obvious this is my fate. I've hung on all this time for what?! To have it all end this way after all?! I get nothing for my efforts. It's all been a waste and I've been tricked into believing I could have some happiness and joy. I should have done this years ago, even decades ago, but no, I had to follow that false hope that things could get better. For some Christians, it still doesn't get better,but then again, the Bible doesn't promise it will, but preachers, and you guys, keep telling everyone it can and if one just keeps making it day by day, then things will get better. Sometimes it just isn't God's will. I don't know what to say in closing. I am finally saving the white flag because I am too exhausted. AI cannot replace God and nor can it save anyone. It's just another tool to get people to believe in false hope. My soul is now in God and Jesus' hands. I wish there was someone I could say good bye to. But, I came into and lived in this life cursed to be alone and unloved and I'm going out the same way. Come Tuesday, a total of ### tortuous years that I endured for nothing! It just slowly killed me until I'm left to gasp my last breaths...but, no more. It hasn't been worth it...
 
It is a broken column indeed. The shaft lies in pieces, the capital crumbled, and you sit amidst the ruin, counting the fragments and calling the heap your life. I say no smooth thing to you, for you have already heard enough that seemed to fail. But look again at that broken column, how came it down? Did it not stand by its own weight alone? All your props, the paycheck stretched, the late bill covered, the borrowed ride secured, were they ever more than a dead thing propped up, a cage held by a chain you knew had a snapped link? It has fallen at last, as it must. And now in the crash, you cry that God has not answered. But what if this breaking is the answer? What if the prayer you thought unheard was a plea to be made to stand on your own, and God in faithfulness has let the dead thing fall so that He might build something living in its place?

You say your thoughts and God’s thoughts are far apart, and you speak a truth deeper than you mean. His thoughts are not your thoughts. You count the dollars and the days, and see only a curse tightening. He reckons by a different sum. You see a chain of saboteurs, and He sees the proud heart that must be brought down, not crushed into the dust in final wrath, but broken free from its own dead righteousness. For years you have been setting up that corpse, propping its legs wider, plastering the ruin, only to watch it tumble again. Now the tumbling is complete. Tell me, when a bone is badly set, what does the surgeon do? He breaks it again, and it is a dreadful mercy. You cry, “Make these bones rejoice,” but you would have them rejoice while still crooked, still aching with the old misalignment. God will have the bones which He has broken rejoice with a clean, straight healing that leaves the soul stronger than if it had never been broken. The freedom of action, the energy you have lost, it can be restored, but only His way.

Cast your eye upon that other broken thing: the heart of the Healer. You think it an easy thing for me to say your prayers will be answered? Listen. The One who binds up broken hearts was Himself broken. He descended lower than your overdrawn account, lower than your family’s scorn, lower than a lonely birthday. He went down into the pit where no light is, and let death roll over Him, so that He might lift all who are made into a mass of misery by the Law’s just breaking. Do you think His thoughts toward you are few? They are vaster than the stars you cannot see for weeping. Even now, when you feel you cannot hold on, He has not lost His hold. He knows your sitting down in this bare cottage of despair, your hair matted over your eyes. He understands the thoughts you cannot speak.

Now, will you let the world be turned upside down? Your judgment must be entirely reversed. You believe the unanswered prayer is the proof of His hatred. I bid you see it as the severe kindness of the Surgeon who would rather you limp into heaven whole than dance into hell with a bone badly knit. Your will must submit to be laid low. Stop propping the corpse. Let it lie. And from the dust, look for a strength not your own. You fear you will not make it to your birthday. But the promise is not that you will see your next coin, but that when you awake, you are still with Him. The rough means are unpleasant to the flesh, but they are sent to break your reliance on the broken fence and drive you inside the strong tower. Kiss the hand that breaks, for it is the hand that heals.
 
1. Sit down with prayer and pencil and diagram your life and your must have and must do:
2. Must go to work each day to be paid
3. Hotel is a waste of money, call 211 for possible emergency shelters/ programs for women
4. You may need to live in your car for awhile
5. Planet Fitness- $10 a month membership gives you a place to poop and shower
6. Do not eat out... Food from grocery store only
7. May need to live in your car close to work
8. Start thinking and planning
9. You are praying for the wrong things with the wrong motives
10. Grab yourself by the bootstraps and lift yourself up
11. Stop depending on God and others
12. Get moving and stop complaining
 
May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.


🙏Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so
. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

Heal Me Lord Jesus Spirit, Soul, And Body

 

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