This is an extremely desperate prayer. I have been so down for several years caring for my extremely ill grandm and aspergers mo m alone in a foreign country with mean neighbours and no money. Diabetes and kidney illness willness and just so alone. My dad is alone and very ill overseas. I am so heartbroken. I would like to die. I am reaching out for prayers. I want my life to end now. I don't know how faithful or how prayerful a person has to be but I'm at a point that I want to die. I just cannot do this anymore. I want my life to be over. There is never any joy. There is so much heartache. Lord please end my life. I cannot handle this life anymore. I really just can't. I want to die this very second. I cannot do this anymore. Lord, I feel so so unhappy with my mother. I cannot handle her aspergers anymore. I just want to cry and cry. Every time I'm with her, I'm sick. I developed type 1 diabetes. Please heal my Cassandra syndrome. Please heal me. Lord, I feel so much heartbroken around my mother. I cannot cope with her aspergers. Please heal her aspergers. I cannot cope with that neighbour who is always throwing my stuff out. I cannot cope with caring for my grandm and fighting with my mom. I cannot cope with my mom compelling in 24/7. I cannot cope with my loss of muscle. I need strength to pick up my grandma. I cannot cope with this depression I've had all my life. I cannot do this. Why can't I have a good day please Lord? If you care, PLEASE DO SOMETHING TO CHANGE MY LIFE FOR THE BETTER TODAY: I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE. My heartbreak is killing me. I beg you all day for help. Please. I need a break from my mother. I feel so sick around her. Please. I beg you. I feel so sick around her. Help. Please. I beg you. Please. I beg you. Please. Please help me. I beg you with all my heart. I can't do this. I feel so hurt by her. I can't do this. I feel so hurt. My mother's asperger is. I would like to die. Please help me. Please. I can't do another second like this. I want to cry all day and I have no water in me. I can't do this. Please. I can't handle my mother's behavior anymore. I can't. Please. I need a break from her. I want to kill myself. I'm trapped so trapped. I can't handle another second of my life. Please. I want to die. I beg you help me now Lord. I can't do this. I can't handle the stress of this life anymore. Please. I can't do this anymore. I can't do this anymore. Please. I beg you. I need help. I can't wait any longer. Please do something with my mother to keep her away from me. I can't handle another second anymore. Please help me.