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Humble Prayer Warrior
This is a true story of my life, ever since I can remember my parents were unhappy and it has a huge impact in my life today. Growing up I was told I was worthless, my early adult years I became an alcoholic and done many wrong things. Than I wanted to change my life, I lived through harsh trials than I found Christ, it was so awesome and the presence of God was extremely beautiful. But than my life went back downhill, the reason is simply sin and meeting the wrong people. The person that I thaught was my father can never be happy, he abused my mom and all my siblings including me. He is a sinner and I know he hates Christ. Three of my oldest sisters ran away young and died young due to unhappy life. I don't have contact with so called my father but still love him but he ruined my life. I love my mom and the young kids thats the reason I'm still here and I have hope in Christ. I've been homeless with a total span of two years in two different occasions in extremely cold arctic temperatures. I've been tormented and mistreated while looking for forgiveness. I love my father and brother but have no contact with them I suspect they practice evil ritual they have nothing to do with Christ. This is real and tonight I sit unhappy why is life like this and I wonder if God still care. How am I going to make it if he has forgotten me because without him there is nothing for me. God I tried everything to reach you and I failed, I need real help. Where is life going to end up without you, you were the only one who cared and there is nothing else for me. God I can't go on without you I've been through enough. God am I going to perish without you because I have nothing without you? God I pray to you and Jesus but you never answer. Will I ever be loved by you again?