lore09
Servant
The word says God works things out for the good, but it seems as if it is other people's good. My children have been beaten and raped, and my baby was given the HIV virus purposely because I am stupid. People are constantly telling me how stupid I am and was, what a horrible person I am and was, and how the signs point to God not caring for me or my children. Even so far as to say He is not listening to my prayers and for the longest time I thought He hated me and was giving me the opposite of what I ask for, and I cursed Him and myself and brought witchcraft and voodoo into my life thinking He hated me. I truly tried to change, and I am having trouble with the fact that everywhere I go, my past is there. I have prayed for death. I just want the Lord to help my children to heal this little child for this horror, these children, to forgive me enough to hear their prayers/cries for help, safety, healing, comfort. Even if He sends me to hell for my sins, I just pray that He helps them. I can't seem to get Him to hear me. Please pray that He heals my babies and listens to their prayers, gets them out of cruel situations that I have gotten them into.
