lifeislovely
Humble Prayer Warrior
the person I love is a very beautiful person. Whenever I see him, even if I've only known him for three years, I still get chills up my spine. I only have known him from online, never met him, or heard his voice, yet the action of him logging on is just so powerful. The emotions, they are still there. Although I can't see him myself, I can feel it, and although I can't hear him laugh, I can feel it. I was so miserable before I met him, but he thought me to be such a good person. He told me I was beautiful when I thought I wasn't, made me laugh when I couldn't stop crying, and was just the nicest person even if I came across as rude. I always thought to myself, what would I ever do without this person? and so, for five months, I just dealt with this great pain, the pain of us splitting, and in this last month I haven't spoken to him, and yet in this month I've grown more than anything. I can stand on my own, smile on my own, laugh on my own, but not entirely on my own, I have God, and really this whole turmoil just brought me closer to God. But I greatly appreciate this person, and the lessons he taught, and the only thing I can do is pray that he comes back and we get into a relationship again- yet, I know it already happened. In my heart, I know it happened, so I only ask for the strength, the clear and positive mind, the power to get through this, finish it off to the end, I don't want to give up, I don't want to back down, because I love him, and I know he loves me. Amen.
