The Freefall

[Justin S]

To make things a long story short, or as short as possible anyways...here it is: I am drowning in despair. I have no air circulating through my spiritual lungs. Life is going cold and I am starting to succumb to death, or so it feels. I am a 24 year old single father...and I was once very close with the Lord - until my ex wife cheated on me and abandoned both of her daughters to live a life of sex, drugs and partying. After her departure I had to re-learn everything on my own...and in the process, have yielded to several of my own inner demons and started to fall away from God. My daughter is looked after NO MATTER WHAT...truly - but myself, I suppose I sacrifice my well being and give-in...in a way. I am losing or have lost motivation to press on and make progress...I take prescription pain killers when there is no real physical pain...only mental/spiritual pain. Recently I have smoked marijuana a few times again after 4 years of being clean off of it...my thoughts are full of despair and life feels hopeless. I feel like I don't know how to get back to God...like I have drifted away. Far away. Its been one year that my daughter's mother has left us...and we are not officially divorced yet - but in that time span I have slept with 6 or 7 different women myself...which makes me an adulterer I suppose. Nothing helps. Please pray for me...inspire me to live again, and for the spirit within myself to reawaken. Please...the enemy is robbing and destroying my life, very quickly and efficiently.

-Justin St.Charles

justinstcharles@hotmail.com

 

[Joyce]

Heavenly Father,

Please have mercy on this young father as he struggles with feelings of anger, hurt, betrayal and hopelessness. Help him to find the hope he desires in Your arms God. Please let him feel Your presence with him in this storm of his life. Sit with him in the boat and put Your loving arms around him as the wind blows, the boat rocks, and lightening flashes all around. Comfort and strengthen him, give him the desire to follow You and to raise his daughters in Your family. Make him a testimony to Your grace and mercy, bringing him to Your throne of love and salvation. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

 

[Harold]

Lord, I stand with this young man in prayer, and ask for Your grace and mercy to flow over him. I know that this feeling that he is experiencing is the Holy Spirit showing him what he is lacking, You in his life. I pray that he beckons to this calling upon his life, returns fully to You, and lets go of the things in the past. Give him the strength to grab hold of Your hand, turn his back on the sin of the past and never look back. Give him of Your love, to be able to raise those children in a Christian home. There never has been or never will be one of us that are perfect, we have all fallen short, but thank You that we have the ability to wash these sins away and stand in the rightousness of Your Son. Cleanse him with the Holy blood of Jesus, wash these sins away, and draw his family closer to thee. In Jesus' name, Amen.

 

[kristi]

Dearest God have mercy on this child. Give him strength, peace and healing. Father renew his spirit and guide him back to you. Help him to remember your amazing grace. God I know regardless of what he has done you are waiting and will run to him and hold him close as in the story of the prodigal son. Help him reach for your word Father, I know he will find you waiting there. In Jesus name.

 

[flower]

Lord Jesus, I know this pain all too well. Please give him the strength and love of his children to forge forward each and everyday. It will get better, in His Name..

 

[mattosan]

justin god is only a simple prayer away from you ,,he is the guy standing in front of you with open arms and doesnt care about what you are doing or what you have done and longs to welcome you home...if you have a bible look at luke chapter15 verse 11 thru 31 and you will see how he feels about you and what you can expect from him...he longs for you to come home and has been waiting for you....do it justin! do it now and dont wait until you are farther away,,he is calling you back to himself and he is knocking on the door of your heart...it is no accident that in this time of dispair in your life that you are realizing that you need him back in your life..the reason you feel this way is he is calling ,,,will you heed the call of the spirit of the holy spirit?? he is calling you to the fathers side,,will you listen?? do it justin ,do it while you are young and dont wait until you are old because you wont have to look back and say" i should have listened when he called" and you will miss so many pitfalls in life because you decided to listen to god calling you OUT of the darkness...he has a plan for your life and it is so much better than our own plans..as you say nothing works,,try his way.. cry out to him ..he's listening.....

Lord I lift up justin to you and ask that you lift him out of this dispair...lord set his life on the rock and give him direction in life and bring his wife home and save her too...lord turn this around for him and show him how much you care about him and change his life..God he has put out his hand to you to say "I Need You" so lord meet him where he is and show yourself strong on his behalf i pray in jesus name amen...

 

[HOPE]

Standing in agreement with your prayer. Praying for you to have a closer walk with God.....Praying for you and your family....

 

[YONETTE]

Justin it it not too late to get back to God. He is a merciful and forgiving God. Just call upon his name and ask for forgiveness. Find a good church to go to and you would get a lot of support. Father I lift Justin before you, you see and know the turmoil that he is in. Help him Lord to be with you once again. We pray for his salvation and for guidance. Touch his daughter Lord and keep them in your grace. Touch his wife and let her realized what she has done to her family. Place a spirit of conviction in her heart and soul. Place people in her path that would guide her to you and back to her family. We place this family in your hands and ask that your will be done in Jesus Name. Amen

 

[Heidi]

heavenly father, i lift your son justing up to you. i am in full agreement with all these wonderful prayers. Lord, pour your love out on justin. Let him know hes not alone. your right there. i pray that justins is wanting to seek you, your just a prayer away. lord i pray that you show justin that your there for the taking. you sacrafices your only son. to forgive all of us,, of our sins. i pray that justin seeks you. IN jesus name, amen