We hear the deep fear and overwhelm in your heart, and we lift you up before the Lord, knowing that He is your refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. You have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, and that is where your hope lies—for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and through which we can boldly approach the throne of grace. The Scriptures remind us in **Philippians 4:6-7**, *"In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."* You have done well to bring your fears to Him, and we join you in seeking His perfect will for your life.
First, we must address the spiritual battles you’ve described—fear of demonic attack, sabotage from spirits, and self-sabotage. These are not to be taken lightly, but neither are they to be feared beyond the power of Christ. **1 John 4:4** declares, *"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he who is in you than he who is in the world."* If you have not already, we strongly urge you to put on the whole armor of God daily, as described in **Ephesians 6:10-18**, and to resist the devil steadfastly in the faith (**1 Peter 5:8-9**). Any involvement with the occult, even unintentional, must be renounced and repented of, for the Lord commands us to have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness (**Ephesians 5:11**). If you have opened doors to spiritual oppression through past actions, confess them to the Lord, turn away from them, and invite the Holy Spirit to fill and cleanse you. We pray now for the blood of Jesus to cover you, breaking every curse, every assignment of the enemy, and every stronghold of fear in your mind. May the Lord rebuke every demonic force seeking to harm you, and may His angels encamp around you (**Psalm 34:7**).
You’ve mentioned fears of illiteracy, slow learning, and the inability to improve. Let us remind you that your worth and identity are not found in your productivity or intelligence, but in Christ alone. **2 Corinthians 12:9-10** tells us, *"He has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then am I strong."* The Lord is the one who grants wisdom and understanding (**Proverbs 2:6**), and He delights in strengthening those who feel inadequate. Your method of copying grammar books verbatim could be a useful tool, but we encourage you to also seek the Lord’s guidance in how He wants you to learn. Pray over your studies, asking Him to open your mind to retain and apply what you read (**James 1:5**). The same goes for mathematics and programming—start small, trust in the Lord’s timing, and remember that progress is not measured by the world’s standards but by faithfulness.
As for your thoughts on programming or learning Japanese for financial survival, these are not wrong in themselves, but we caution you to seek the Lord’s will above all. **Proverbs 16:3** says, *"Commit your deeds to Yahweh, and your plans shall succeed."* Do not let fear drive your decisions, but let the Holy Spirit lead you. If the Lord is calling you to learn these skills, He will provide the means and the strength. However, if these pursuits are rooted in anxiety rather than faith, lay them before Him and ask for clarity. The same applies to your thoughts on traveling to Japan—trust that the Lord will direct your steps (**Proverbs 3:5-6**) and provide for your needs, including medication. Do not let "what-ifs" paralyze you, but take one step at a time in obedience to Him.
Your mention of obesity, social avoidance, and the lack of a college degree touches on areas where the world often measures success, but again, the Lord’s ways are higher. **1 Samuel 16:7** reminds us that *"man looks at the outward appearance, but Yahweh looks at the heart."* If your weight or lack of driving has become a barrier to relationships or opportunities, we encourage you to seek the Lord’s help in making small, sustainable changes for your health. But do not let shame keep you isolated. The body of Christ is meant to be a family, and while we understand social anxiety, we gently urge you to ask the Lord to lead you to a biblical community where you can grow and be encouraged. As for the lack of a degree, remember that God equips the called—He does not call the equipped. Many have thrived in ways that defy worldly expectations because they trusted in Him (**1 Corinthians 1:27-29**).
We notice your mention of giving away money and feeling as though you’ve lost opportunity and comfort. If this was done in a spirit of generosity, the Lord sees and rewards it (**Luke 6:38**). But if it was done out of compulsion, fear, or unwise stewardship, we encourage you to seek the Lord’s wisdom in how to manage what He has entrusted to you. He is your provider (**Philippians 4:19**), and He will not leave you destitute if you seek His kingdom first (**Matthew 6:33**).
Your idea of creating a YouTube log or portfolio could be a fruitful way to document your journey and even minister to others, but we caution you to guard your heart against comparison or the pursuit of validation. If the Lord leads you to do this, do it unto Him (**Colossians 3:23**), not for the approval of others. Similarly, the idea of compiling a guide for entrepreneurial development is not wrong, but ensure it is rooted in biblical principles and submitted to the Lord’s direction.
Finally, your desire to undertake a Daniel fast is commendable, as fasting is a powerful spiritual discipline when done with the right heart (**Matthew 6:16-18**). We encourage you to seek the Lord’s timing and prepare your heart for it, using the time to draw closer to Him in prayer and repentance. Fasting is not about earning God’s favor but about humbling yourself before Him and seeking His face.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are his Creator, Redeemer, and Sustainer. Lord, we ask that You would deliver him from every spirit of fear, anxiety, and oppression that has sought to bind him. By the power of the blood of Jesus, we rebuke every demonic assignment against his mind, his body, his learning, and his future. We declare that no weapon formed against him shall prosper (**Isaiah 54:17**), and that You, Lord, are his strong tower (**Proverbs 18:10**). Father, we ask that You would renew his mind (**Romans 12:2**) and grant him clarity, wisdom, and supernatural understanding as he seeks to learn and grow. Remove every blockage, every lie of the enemy that says he cannot improve or succeed. Let him know deep in his spirit that he is fearfully and wonderfully made (**Psalm 139:14**), and that You have a good plan for his life (**Jeremiah 29:11**).
Lord, we pray for healing in his body—restore his health, give him discipline and strength to care for the temple You have given him. Break the cycle of avoidance and isolation, and lead him to godly relationships that will encourage and sharpen him (**Proverbs 27:17**). Father, provide for his every need—financially, emotionally, and spiritually. If it is Your will for him to learn programming, Japanese, or any other skill, open the doors and grant him the perseverance to walk through them. If there are paths he is considering that are not of You, close those doors gently but firmly, and redirect his steps.
We pray for deliverance from self-sabotage and madness—let Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, guard his heart and mind in Christ Jesus. Break every chain of bondage, every generational curse, and every stronghold that has sought to keep him in fear. Fill him afresh with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (**Galatians 5:22-23**).
Lord, we ask that You would give him a heart of wisdom to steward his time, resources, and talents well. If there are areas of his life where he has not submitted to You, convict him gently and lead him to repentance. Let him know the freedom that comes from surrendering all to You. And Father, as he considers fasting, prepare his heart to seek You wholeheartedly. Let this be a time of deep encounter with You, where he hears Your voice clearly and is strengthened in his faith.
We thank You, Lord, that You are his Shepherd, and he shall not want (**Psalm 23:1**). You are the God who sees him, who knows his every fear and struggle, and who holds his future in Your hands. We declare that he is more than a conqueror through Christ who loves him (**Romans 8:37**), and that no scheme of the enemy shall prevail against him. Let him rise up in the authority of Jesus’ name, walking in victory, purpose, and peace.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
