We come before the Lord with hearts burdened for you, dear brother, as we see the deep distress and spiritual confusion you are experiencing. First, we praise God that you are calling upon the name of Jesus Christ, for there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved, and it is only through Him that we have access to the Father. As Scripture declares, *"There is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"* (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). Your acknowledgment of Jesus in your plea is a testament to the faith within you, and we encourage you to hold fast to Him alone, for He is your shield, your deliverer, and your peace.
Yet we must address with both compassion and urgency the spiritual strongholds that seem to be gripping your mind and heart. The fears you describe—of fictional demons, curses tied to names or bloodlines, and supernatural retaliation for actions in video games—are not from God. These thoughts do not align with the truth of Scripture, which tells us that *"God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control"* (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). What you are experiencing is not the conviction of the Holy Spirit but the deception of the enemy, who seeks to distort your perception of reality and bind you in fear. The Bible warns us that *"Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light"* (2 Corinthians 11:14, WEB), and his goal is to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But Jesus has already disarmed the powers and authorities through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15), and *"the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world"* (1 John 4:4, WEB).
Let us be clear: fictional characters, video game lore, or even the actions you take within a game have no spiritual authority over you. The laughter you hear from your father is not the work of a "Shaco demon," nor are the sounds of vehicles outside connected to grenades in a game. These are distractions and lies designed to keep your focus on superstition rather than on the truth of God’s Word. Similarly, the idea that your financial decisions or academic struggles are the result of "religious attacks" or curses tied to names like "David" is not biblical. Curses have no power over those who are in Christ Jesus (Galatians 3:13). The Bible teaches that *"Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law, having become a curse for us"*—so if you are in Christ, you are free.
That said, we must also address the influence of the media and entertainment you are consuming. Video games like *League of Legends* and *Apex Legends* often glorify violence, dark themes, and even occult imagery. While playing games is not inherently sinful, we are called to *"finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things"* (Philippians 4:8, WEB). If these games are feeding your anxiety, fueling superstition, or causing you to fixate on darkness, it may be wise to step away from them for a season—or permanently—so your mind can be renewed by the Word of God (Romans 12:2). Ask yourself: *Does this bring me closer to Christ, or does it distract me from Him?*
We also sense a deep spiritual hunger in your words, but it seems misdirected toward fear rather than faith. You mention the "slaughter verses" and the book of Esther, yet it’s vital to understand these passages in their proper context. The Bible does contain accounts of war and judgment, but they are not meant to be repeated as incantations or used to invoke curses. Scripture is *"God-breathed and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for instruction in righteousness"* (2 Timothy 3:16, WEB)—not a tool for supernatural retaliation. If you are fixating on these verses in a way that feels compulsive or tied to fear, we urge you to shift your focus to the love and grace of Jesus, who said, *"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, give I to you. Don’t let your heart be troubled, neither let it be fearful"* (John 14:27, WEB).
As for your academic struggles and feelings of inadequacy, we remind you that your worth is not found in your performance but in Christ alone. The apostle Paul wrote, *"But by the grace of God I am what I am. His grace which was bestowed on me was not futile, but I worked more than all of them; yet not I, but the grace of God which was with me"* (1 Corinthians 15:10, WEB). If you are feeling attacked by jealousy or spiritual opposition, cling to the promise that *"no weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is from me," says Yahweh"* (Isaiah 54:17, WEB). Your mind is a battlefield, but you are not defenseless. *"For though we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war according to the flesh; for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but mighty before God to the throwing down of strongholds, throwing down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ"* (2 Corinthians 10:3-5, WEB).
Finally, your comment about wishing you were born in Korea reveals a heart that may be longing for escape rather than trusting God’s sovereignty over your life. Remember that *"in him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of his will"* (Ephesians 1:11, NIV). God has placed you exactly where you are for a purpose, and He will use even your struggles for His glory if you surrender them to Him.
Now, let us pray for you with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are the God who sees, who knows, and who delivers. Lord Jesus, we rebuke every lie of the enemy that has taken root in his mind—every fear tied to fiction, every superstition masquerading as spirituality, and every distortion of Your holy Word. We declare that *"the Son of God was revealed for this purpose: to destroy the devil’s works"* (1 John 3:8, WEB), and we stand on that truth now. Break the power of every ungodly thought pattern, every compulsive fear, and every stronghold that exalts itself against the knowledge of Christ. Replace confusion with clarity, anxiety with peace, and superstition with the unshakable truth of Your Word.
Father, we ask that You would expose the source of the laughter and noises he perceives, that he may see them for what they are—distractions from the enemy, not divine punishments. Guard his mind, Lord, and help him to *"take every thought captive to obey Christ"* (2 Corinthians 10:5, WEB). If there are any ungodly influences in his life—whether through media, relationships, or past experiences—reveal them to him and give him the strength to turn away.
We pray for his academic journey, that You would restore his confidence and remind him that his identity is found in You alone. Remove the spirit of fear and replace it with a spirit of wisdom, understanding, and excellence (Isaiah 11:2). Surround him with godly community—brothers and sisters in Christ who can speak truth, offer support, and pray with him.
Lord, we also pray for his father. If there is any spiritual oppression in his home, we ask that You would bring light and deliverance. Let Your peace reign in that household, and let every member of his family encounter the love and power of Jesus Christ.
Finally, Father, we ask that You would draw him deeper into Your presence. Let him experience the reality of Your love, which *"casts out fear"* (1 John 4:18, WEB). Fill him with the Holy Spirit, that he may walk in discernment, wisdom, and victory. May he know, beyond any doubt, that *"neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will be able to separate us from God’s love which is in Christ Jesus our Lord"* (Romans 8:38-39, WEB).
We thank You, Jesus, for Your blood that covers him, for Your name that protects him, and for Your Spirit that empowers him. May he rise up in the authority You have given him and walk in freedom, in Jesus’ mighty name. Amen.
Brother, we urge you to immerse yourself in Scripture daily, to pray without ceasing, and to seek fellowship with mature believers who can disciple you. If you do not have a local church home, we strongly encourage you to find one where the Word of God is preached boldly and where you can be surrounded by accountability. The enemy wants to isolate you, but God has designed you for community. You are not meant to walk this path alone.
If you are struggling with obsessive thoughts or compulsive behaviors, we also encourage you to seek godly counseling. Sometimes, the enemy uses our mental and emotional vulnerabilities to gain a foothold, but there is no shame in seeking help. The Lord can use professionals, pastors, and brothers and sisters in Christ to bring healing and restoration.
Stand firm in the faith, knowing that *"the one who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus"* (Philippians 1:6, WEB). You are loved, you are redeemed, and you are more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus. Walk in that truth today.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
