We hear the deep distress and spiritual turmoil in your words, and we are moved with compassion to lift you up in prayer and truth. You have called upon the name of Jesus Christ, and that is the only name by which we are saved, the only name with power over darkness, and the only name that can break every chain. The fact that you are reaching out to Him is evidence that His Spirit is still at work in you, drawing you to Himself even in the midst of your struggles. Let us address your concerns with the truth of Scripture and pray over you with the authority given to us in Christ.
First, we must gently but firmly correct a few things in your request that do not align with biblical truth. You asked Jesus to "slaughter the souls following you." Beloved, this is not the heart of Christ nor the way of His kingdom. Our battle is not against flesh and blood—nor even against souls—but against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12). Jesus did not come to destroy souls but to save them (Luke 9:56, John 3:17). Instead of asking for the destruction of others, we are to pray for their salvation and for God’s protection over our own minds and spirits. The voice whispering in your mind is not from God, for God is not the author of confusion or fear (1 Corinthians 14:33, 2 Timothy 1:7). That voice is a lie from the enemy, seeking to distort your perception of reality and pull you away from the truth of God’s love and power.
You also mentioned that you believe your life is made worse by reading the Holy Bible and that it feels like condemnation and a waste of time. Oh, dear one, this is one of the enemy’s greatest deceptions! The Bible is not a book of condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1 declares, *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus."* The Word of God is alive and powerful, sharper than any two-edged sword, and it is meant to convict us of sin *so that we may repent and be freed from it*—not to leave us in despair (Hebrews 4:12). If you are feeling condemned, it is because the enemy is twisting the truth to accuse you, just as he accuses the saints day and night before God (Revelation 12:10). But Jesus is your Advocate, and His blood speaks a better word over you than any accusation (1 John 2:1, Hebrews 12:24).
The Bible is not a waste of time—it is your lifeline. It is the very breath of God, given to equip you, to give you hope, and to renew your mind (2 Timothy 3:16-17, Romans 12:2). If reading it feels burdensome, ask the Holy Spirit to open your eyes to see the wonders of His Word (Psalm 119:18). Ask Him to reveal His love and grace to you as you read. The problem is not the Word; the problem is the spiritual battle raging for your mind and heart. The enemy does not want you to read the Bible because it is your weapon against him. Do not let him steal this gift from you.
As for the idea that your life is cursed or that others’ faith is contributing to a "lesser reality" for you, we must reject this outright. Curses have no power over those who are in Christ Jesus (Galatians 3:13-14). Jesus became a curse for you on the cross so that you might be redeemed from every curse. The whispers in your mind are not reality—they are lies designed to make you feel powerless and isolated. But you are not powerless! Greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You are a child of God, and if God is for you, who can be against you? (Romans 8:31).
The media you have been consuming may indeed be reinforcing these lies and opening doors to spiritual oppression. We strongly urge you to turn away from any content that feeds fear, confusion, or ungodly fascination with curses or the occult. Philippians 4:8 tells us, *"Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things."* Fill your mind with the truth of God’s Word, with worship, and with fellowship with believers who can speak life into you.
Now, let us pray for you with the authority and love of Christ:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, lifting up this precious soul who is under attack by the enemy. Lord, You see the torment, the confusion, and the spiritual battles raging against them. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper, and every tongue that rises against them in judgment, You shall condemn (Isaiah 54:17). Father, we rebuked every lying spirit, every whisper of condemnation, and every voice that is not from You. We command these spirits to be silent and to flee in the name of Jesus Christ.
Lord, we ask that You would flood this beloved one’s mind with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remove every trace of fear, anxiety, and despair, and replace it with the assurance of Your love and sovereignty. Holy Spirit, we ask that You would renew their mind and help them to see themselves as You see them: redeemed, forgiven, and deeply loved. Break the power of every lie that has taken root in their heart, and replace it with Your truth.
Father, we pray for a hunger and thirst for Your Word. Where the enemy has made the Bible feel like a burden, we ask that You would restore the joy of Your salvation and the delight of meditating on Your statutes (Psalm 1:2, Psalm 51:12). Open their eyes to see the beauty of Your truth and the hope found in Your promises. Let Your Word be a lamp to their feet and a light to their path (Psalm 119:105).
We also pray for protection over their mind and spirit. Guard them from the influences of ungodly media and from any content that would feed the enemy’s lies. Give them discernment to recognize what is pleasing to You and the strength to turn away from what is not. Surround them with Your angels, Lord, and let no evil befall them (Psalm 91:10-11).
Father, if there has been any involvement in sin—whether through media, words, or actions—that has given the enemy a foothold, we ask for forgiveness and cleansing through the blood of Jesus. We renounce any agreement with the enemy’s lies and declare that this beloved one is washed clean, sanctified, and justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God (1 Corinthians 6:11).
Finally, Lord, we pray for divine connections. Bring godly believers into their life who can speak truth, offer support, and pray with them. Let them not walk this path alone but be strengthened by the body of Christ.
We thank You, Father, for Your faithfulness. We thank You that You are mighty to save and that You have already won the victory through Jesus Christ. We trust that You will bring breakthrough, healing, and restoration. May this beloved one experience Your peace, Your presence, and Your power in a fresh and tangible way.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
Beloved, we want to encourage you to keep fighting the good fight of faith. The enemy wants you to believe that you are alone, that God is against you, and that there is no hope. But these are all lies. The truth is that Jesus loves you, He has not abandoned you, and He is fighting for you even now. Cling to Him. Cry out to Him. Fill your heart and mind with His Word, even if it feels difficult at first. He is your refuge and your strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1).
If you do not have a community of believers around you, we urge you to seek out a Bible-believing church where you can be discipled, encouraged, and prayed for. You were not meant to walk this journey alone. And if you have not yet surrendered your life fully to Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we implore you to do so today. There is no other name by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Turn from your sins, believe in Him, and receive the new life He offers. He is waiting for you with open arms.
You are loved. You are not forgotten. And you are more than a conqueror through Christ who loves you (Romans 8:37). Stand firm in this truth, and watch as the Lord brings victory in your life.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
