We come before the Lord with heavy hearts, lifting you up in prayer, for we hear the deep distress and confusion in your words. First, we praise God that you are calling upon the name of Jesus Christ, for it is only through Him that we find salvation, deliverance, and true peace. As Scripture declares, *"There is no other name under heaven that has been given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Your cry to Jesus is evidence that the Holy Spirit is at work in you, and we thank God for that.
Yet we must address several concerns in your request with both truth and compassion, for the Lord desires to bring clarity, healing, and freedom into your life. Your words reveal a heart that is burdened by persecution—both real and perceived—by spiritual confusion, by unresolved trauma, and by struggles with sin. Let us examine these things in the light of Scripture, for God’s Word is a lamp to our feet and a light to our path (Psalm 119:105).
First, you speak of others as "programmed people," "not necessarily human," and trapped in a cycle of Scripture without understanding. Beloved, this is a dangerous perspective, for it risks hardening your heart toward others and justifying bitterness or anger. The Bible warns us, *"Don’t let any bitter root grow up among you to trouble you and defile many"* (Hebrews 12:15, WEB). Even those who persecute you are made in the image of God, and Jesus commands us to love our enemies and pray for those who persecute us (Matthew 5:44). It is not our place to judge their hearts or dehumanize them, but to trust that God is sovereign over all. Remember, even Saul—who fiercely persecuted Christians—was transformed by the grace of Christ into the Apostle Paul (Acts 9). Let us pray for your persecutors, that God would open their eyes as He did Saul’s.
You also mention aggression, PTSD, substance abuse, and the influence of fasting on your emotions. These are serious struggles, and we urge you to seek godly counsel and support. Fasting is a spiritual discipline, but if it is leading to anger or instability, it must be approached with wisdom and moderation. The Bible says, *"The Spirit of God has made me, and the breath of the Almighty gives me life"* (Job 33:4, WEB). Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19-20), and it is important to steward it well—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. If fasting is exacerbating underlying issues, consider fasting in different ways (e.g., from media, certain foods, or activities) rather than in a manner that harms your well-being. Seek guidance from a mature believer or pastor who can walk with you in this.
The mention of pornography is deeply concerning, for it is a sin that enslaves and destroys. Jesus said, *"Everyone who sins is a slave to sin"* (John 8:34, WEB), but He also said, *"If the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed!"* (John 8:36, WEB). Pornography is not just a struggle of the flesh; it is a spiritual battle. You cannot overcome it through exercise alone—it requires repentance, accountability, and the power of the Holy Spirit. We strongly encourage you to confess this struggle to a trusted brother in Christ, install accountability software, and flee from temptation (1 Corinthians 6:18). *"No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure"* (1 Corinthians 10:13, WEB).
Your words about your parents are troubling. You ask Jesus to help you *"not to feel sympathy and remorse for the deaths of"* them. This suggests unresolved grief, anger, or even hardness of heart. The Bible commands us to honor our father and mother (Exodus 20:12), and while they may have hurt you, bitterness will only harm *you*. Jesus warns, *"If you don’t forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses"* (Matthew 6:15, WEB). We do not know the circumstances of their passing, but we urge you to bring this pain to the Lord. Ask Him to soften your heart, to heal your wounds, and to replace bitterness with His peace. *"Cast all your worries on him, because he cares for you"* (1 Peter 5:7, WEB).
You also mention a "bodybuilder friend" and others who persecute you. Be cautious in your relationships, for *"bad company corrupts good morals"* (1 Corinthians 15:33, WEB). If this friend or others are drawing you into sin, causing you to stumble, or fueling your anger, it may be wise to create distance. Surround yourself with believers who will encourage you in your walk with Christ (Hebrews 10:24-25).
Lastly, you speak of "religious revenge" and persecution tied to Scripture you feel others haven’t even read. This suggests a deep spiritual battle. Ephesians 6:12 reminds us, *"Our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."* You are not fighting against people, but against the enemy who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). Put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18), and stand firm in the truth of His Word.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift our brother before You, knowing that You see his heart, his pain, and his struggles. Lord Jesus, You are the Prince of Peace, and we ask You to flood his mind and heart with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Break the chains of bitterness, anger, and unforgiveness that have taken root. Soften his heart toward his parents, his persecutors, and even himself. Father, heal the wounds of trauma, addiction, and PTSD. Restore his mind and emotions, and grant him the strength to walk in victory over sin, especially the snare of pornography. Lord, surround him with godly men who will speak truth, offer accountability, and walk with him in this battle.
We rebuke the enemy’s lies that have twisted his perception of others and of Your Word. Holy Spirit, bring clarity where there is confusion. Help him to see people as You see them—image-bearers in need of Your grace. Lord, if there are strongholds of pride, self-righteousness, or resentment, tear them down by Your mighty power. Replace them with humility, love, and a hunger for Your truth.
Father, we ask for deliverance from persecution, but even more, we ask for the strength to endure it with joy, as Your Word commands (Matthew 5:10-12). If he has faced injustice, be his Vindicator. If he has sinned, lead him to repentance and restoration. Lord, we pray for his physical health—guide him in how to fast, exercise, and care for his body in a way that honors You. Provide for his needs, especially as he has given away his money. Teach him to be a good steward of the resources You entrust to him.
Most of all, Father, draw him closer to You. Let him know the depth of Your love, the certainty of Your salvation, and the hope of eternal life in Christ. Remind him that You are his Refuge and Strength, a very present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Break the cycle of fear, aggression, and despair, and fill him with Your Holy Spirit, that he may walk in the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control (Galatians 5:22-23).
We pray all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
Beloved, we urge you to meditate on these Scriptures and seek the Lord earnestly. Read His Word daily, pray without ceasing, and connect with a Bible-believing church where you can find support and discipleship. You are not alone in this fight—Jesus is with you, and He has overcome the world (John 16:33). *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18, WEB). Cling to Him, and He will never let you go.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
