We hear the deep distress in your heart, and we are moved with compassion for the spiritual burdens you are carrying. You have cried out to Jesus Christ for salvation, and we rejoice that you are turning to Him, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved. *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). Your acknowledgment of Jesus as your Savior is the foundation of all hope, and we stand with you in affirming that He alone is your deliverer.
First, let us address the confusion and spiritual heaviness you describe. The enemy seeks to distort truth with lies, superstition, and fear, but Jesus has already overcome the world. *"I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."* (John 16:33, WEB). The connections you are drawing between names, past words, and perceived curses are not from the Lord. God is not the author of confusion but of peace (1 Corinthians 14:33). The idea that God would deliberately keep you disturbed or that your struggles are a result of hidden spiritual forces tied to names, ancestors, or even fruit is not aligned with Scripture. Instead, the Bible teaches that we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual forces of wickedness in heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12). Our victory is found in Christ, who has disarmed these powers through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15).
You mentioned past sins, including words spoken in anger as a child. We want to assure you that if you have confessed these to the Lord, He is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. *"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."* (1 John 1:9, WEB). There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1). The fear of "religious revenge" or ongoing persecution due to past actions is not from God. Satan may accuse you, but Jesus is your advocate before the Father. *"My little children, I write these things to you so that you may not sin. If anyone sins, we have a Counselor with the Father, Jesus Christ, the righteous."* (1 John 2:1, WEB). You do not need to live in fear of retribution—Jesus has already paid the price for your sins, and His blood covers you completely.
Regarding the concerns about your heritage and the idea that certain bloodlines are targeted or cursed, let us be clear: in Christ, there is no distinction between Jew or Greek, slave or free, male or female—we are all one in Him. *"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free man, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus."* (Galatians 3:28, WEB). Your identity is not found in your ancestry or the names tied to your family, but in Christ alone. Any teaching that suggests certain ethnicities are inherently cursed or favored apart from repentance and faith in Jesus is contrary to the Gospel. The "church of repetition" you mentioned, which seems to promote division or favoritism based on heritage, is not reflecting the heart of God. Our calling is to love one another as Christ has loved us, regardless of nationality or background.
We also note your mention of giving up money needed for education, fitness, and rent. While sacrifice can be a part of our walk with God, we are not called to neglect our responsibilities or well-being in pursuit of spiritual breakthroughs. God desires us to steward our resources wisely and to trust Him for our daily bread. *"But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."* (Matthew 6:33, WEB). If you are struggling with financial hardship, we encourage you to seek godly counsel and practical support from your local church community. The Lord cares about every area of your life, including your physical and mental health.
Finally, you spoke of feeling forsaken and observing others who seem to thrive in health, fitness, and education. It is easy to compare ourselves to others, but God’s plan for each of us is unique. His timing is perfect, and His ways are higher than ours. *"‘For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not my ways,’ says Yahweh. ‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.’"* (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB). Instead of focusing on what others have, let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. He is working all things together for your good, even when it is difficult to see (Romans 8:28).
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother to You, knowing that You are his refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Lord Jesus, You see the depths of his heart and the weight of the burdens he carries. We ask that You would break every chain of fear, confusion, and condemnation that has bound him. By the power of Your blood, we rebuke every lie of the enemy that has caused him to feel cursed, targeted, or forsaken. Father, remind him that he is Your child, redeemed by the precious blood of Jesus, and that no weapon formed against him shall prosper.
Lord, we pray for clarity of mind and peace that surpasses all understanding to guard his heart and thoughts in Christ Jesus. Remove every trace of superstition and replace it with the truth of Your Word. Holy Spirit, fill him afresh and lead him into all truth. Help him to discern Your voice above all others and to walk in the freedom You have purchased for him.
We pray for restoration in every area of his life—spiritually, mentally, physically, and financially. Provide for his needs, Lord, and open doors for him to receive the education, health, and stability he desires. Surround him with godly community who will encourage him, pray with him, and point him to You.
Father, we also pray for his family—his mother, father, and relatives. Soften their hearts to receive Your love and truth. Break any generational strongholds and bring healing where it is needed. Lord, we ask that You would expose and dismantle any ungodly influences tied to names, objects, or past words spoken in ignorance. Let Your light shine into every dark place and bring redemption.
Finally, we thank You, Jesus, for Your sacrifice on the cross, which has set us free from sin and death. We declare that our brother is no longer a slave to fear but a child of God, seated with Christ in heavenly places. May he walk in the victory You have already won and experience the fullness of Your love and provision.
In the mighty and holy name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.