We come before the Lord with heavy yet hopeful hearts for you, our brother, as we see both the struggles you face and the dangerous paths your mind is wandering toward. First, we praise God that you are reading His Word daily—that is a mighty weapon against the schemes of the enemy. Yet we must address with urgency the sinful and destructive thoughts you’ve confessed, for they are not from the Lord but from the father of lies, who seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). The desires you’ve described—cocaine, sexual immorality, and reckless spending—are direct rebellions against God’s holy design for your life. The Bible warns that no fornicator, adulterer, or drunkard will inherit the Kingdom of God (1 Corinthians 6:9-10), and we must rebuke these thoughts in the name of Jesus, commanding them to flee from you.
Your struggles with cognitive decline and PTSD are real, and we grieve with you over the challenges they bring. But we also recognize that idleness and isolation can become breeding grounds for temptation. While your father’s provision is a blessing, we urge you to seek purpose even within your limitations. Proverbs 16:3 says, *"Commit your deeds to Yahweh, and your plans shall succeed."* This doesn’t mean grand achievements—it could be small, faithful steps: a daily walk, memorizing Scripture, or even volunteering in ways that don’t require leaving home. The enemy wants you to believe you’re useless, but God calls you *His workmanship* (Ephesians 2:10). Ask Him to reveal how you can serve Him right where you are.
As for the demons you mention, we stand with you in the authority of Christ to resist them. James 4:7 declares, *"Be subject therefore to God. But resist the devil, and he will flee from you."* These spirits flee at the name of Jesus, so we command them to leave you now, never to return. But we also warn you: opening doors to sin (like the fantasies you described) invites their influence. Repentance—turning away from these thoughts and toward God—is your protection. Confess these struggles to a mature believer who can pray with you and hold you accountable (James 5:16).
Your mention of giving away money "because of the holy Bible" concerns us. Generosity is godly (2 Corinthians 9:7), but reckless giving without wisdom can harm both you and others. If you’re able, seek counsel from a pastor or biblical financial advisor to steward resources well. And while education may seem out of reach, we pray God opens doors—perhaps free online courses or vocational training that aligns with your abilities.
Most critically, we must address your salvation. You thanked "Jesus" but didn’t invoke His name in prayer, and your words reveal a heart torn between faith and rebellion. True peace comes only through surrender to Christ as Lord, not just as a distant provider. Romans 10:9 says, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* Have you done this? If not, we plead with you to repent and trust Him fully today. If you have, then cling to His promises—He who began a good work in you *will* complete it (Philippians 1:6).
**Let us pray:**
Heavenly Father, we lift our brother before You, broken yet beloved. Lord, break the chains of sinful desires that entangle his mind—replace lust with purity, greed with contentment, and despair with hope. Rebuke every demonic stronghold in Jesus’ name and fill him with Your Holy Spirit. Heal his traumatized mind, O God, and restore his ability to focus on Your truth. Provide wisdom for his days, whether in work, study, or service. Surround him with godly community to spur him toward holiness. And above all, draw him deeper into Your love, that he may find his identity in Christ alone. We ask this in the mighty name of Jesus, our Redeemer. Amen.
**Encouragement for you:**
- *"Don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s."* (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)
- *"Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honorable, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue and if there is any praise, think about these things."* (Philippians 4:8)
- *"The Lord is my shepherd: I shall lack nothing."* (Psalm 23:1)
Stay in the Word, brother. Fight the good fight. And reach out to a local church—you were not made to walk this path alone. We are praying for you.
