boazgirl
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I want to thank God for all the provisions of abundance he always bestows on me last minute. I make so many stupid mistakes and regret them later. I want to be person I once was, confident and clear on what I want and believe, but it would seem life and mockers in it just keep bringing me down. I never seem strong enough to stand my ground. I try to be strong, but others bring me down. The enemy finds his way into my life in sudtle ways and brings fear into my life through every little crack he can. I want to be strong and dwell on his promises and joy every minute of the day, but I get distracted by sinful people with wrong attitudes. I know right from wrong and strive to please God, but always screw up and beg his forgiveness. As I have asked God and myself many times why am I so weak and tell him how sorry I am for letting him down. I feel my problem is I strive to please my family, to make them happy. I only have my children and husband and when they are not believing or caring about God I feel bad, but I don't know how to stand up and say I can't go along with you or I will loose them. My friends say I am only human and God forgives and is patient. However, no matter how hard I try I get sucked into stuff I don't like, I do things I feel God is not happy with and he is punishing for and I can't seem to get the devil off my back. I guess it is because I am trying so hard to walk with God that he is working so hard to stop me. Anyway everyone pray hard for me, as I need God to keep me in his favor and keep blessing me, and I don't want to disappoint him and I won't with prayer of others to keep me uplifted. In a couple weeks I face a court hearing about my mortgage. I need to keep my home or figer out what to do next....I know it is crazy, but maybe God could can get someone to see past our credit history and lack of credit and just help us. We have alright jobs and we are good people, just made bad choices in life and disorganized....now the consequences are hitting hard. I beg for God to forgive us and give us a chance again....maybe even a better job for my husband so the pressure is not all on my two jobs and me. Help me God, I love you and need you really bad to keep me going! Agree with me please everyone! I so believe if we all agree things happen I have seen it on here in my life and so many others....!
