Anonymous
Beloved of All
Good morning, I ask for prayer for me, I am ### and thank God I am leaving a relationship with a young pastor who is not yet restored and who prevented me from restoring myself in God, forgiving his infidelities and returning to God and his fatherhood with all my heart, I am leaving it in the hands of God, I am repenting and returning from idolizing him as a reason to live in front of Jesus and from idolizing money, power, my fasts and prayers for both of us as saviors and lords of both of us since I wanted to "manipulate" buy him or keep him as a husband through all these idols in my heart and Spirit, I recently spoke to him and told him that we had forgotten to put God first in our relationship and that this had been our big mistake which is why I have ended up so emotionally damaged and he in fornication and prostitution (infidelity) so praying God leads me to renounce him and the marriage commitment that I wanted to make with and to my commitment to save him or be his "saving lamb" and what he is complaining about is that I have not told him all this before and he wanted to fast but he has so many chains with promiscuity that we are already unequally yoked, the Lord has told me that I have been foolish that I have unintentionally destroyed this young man and my life and I am sorry, I confess it, and I ask for prayer because I want to change. I am willing to leave everything and go to a Christian community for a few years or return to my mother's house (who went through something very similar: she is now separated from my father): I do not understand what God wants and I ask for prayer to understand and do what God wants (because my mother still has to heal from the 25 years of abuse from my father and his continuous infidelities) to cleanse myself of bad spirits that this boy has transmitted to me (because I do not know how to get out of this, I pray that God conquers my surrender more and more), heal, forgive, start over with the Lord. I do not want to be the same and I ask for prayer so that God saves this boy from his idols, I pray that God can forgive us, reconcile us with him and can help us forgive each other with all our hearts and can transform us for His glory even if God gives us different spouses. I ask for prayer so that God helps us to respect and obey him and gives us his conviction of sin, judgment, justice and truth, his repentance, and Your faith, love, mercy, hope, peace, and purpose. I pray that despite the mistakes, God takes control of the situation and His will is done. I apologize for the sad story; thank you for your attention, advice, and prayer.