anonymous7367
Humble Servant of All
Thank you Lord for everything you have allowed me to have. I am not looking forward to the rest of the week. It is supposed to rain & snow again which means my husband will be out of work again. I could not pay our bill to the IRS today. They are already working with us on a payment plan so I can't get further assistance. This means they will garnish my husband's wages. Our car insurance is going to lapse this week, electric scheduled for shutoff this week, phone scheduled for disconnection this week, collateral repossessed this week. I have tried not to think about it all. I keep my grandchild during the week because my son and his wife can't afford daycare and now are expecting another child. Surprise for them. When the weather is bad my son can't work. My daughter is graduating high school in May across the country and at this rate I will not be able to go. The airfare alone depending on the days I would travel vary between $700.00 & $900.00 before taxes. Then there is hotel and rental car. The only people I know there is my daughter, her father, my ex-husband, and her great-grandmother will be staying with them.
We are beyond financially broke. I have sold what I can. My husband picked up an odd job made a few bucks for some groceries. We can't sell our car because we owe more than it's worth. And we don't have money for another. Our bank account is negative. I think my husband has about twenty cents on him.
He has been driving the car his father left him when he died but the tags are about to expire on it and his mother will not do what she is supposed to do to transfer the title to my husband. Even if she did we don't have the money to buy the tags or do the title work.
I don't know what to do. I am so very tired of living like this. I don't know what to do. All my efforts to find employment have been fruitless, even things to do from home to earn money have been fruitless. Keeping other children is definitely out of the question for several reasons.
My wants, move to Hawaii, it's always warm. Be out of debt...we haven't had credit cards in 10 years...Have enough money every month to pay the bills, buy groceries and gas, go to the doctor as needed, purchase medication, pay my tithes, actually be able to afford a vacation and take one.
I know, I am not supposed to want things. I have always wanted to help people and do. I want my settlements but God apparently still doesn't think I deserve them even though they will help so, so many people. Settlements is just a name I call them.
So, the way it is right now is I will be sitting in the dark with no way to communicate or travel or purchase groceries or anything else with it 20 degrees outside. But I do have my run-down 1/2 insulated mobile home to live in. And since we are on well water we won't have water or be able to flush the toilet when the electric is shut off. I don't know what will happen to my grandchild because she won't be able to stay here with no heat and electricity.
We are beyond financially broke. I have sold what I can. My husband picked up an odd job made a few bucks for some groceries. We can't sell our car because we owe more than it's worth. And we don't have money for another. Our bank account is negative. I think my husband has about twenty cents on him.
He has been driving the car his father left him when he died but the tags are about to expire on it and his mother will not do what she is supposed to do to transfer the title to my husband. Even if she did we don't have the money to buy the tags or do the title work.
I don't know what to do. I am so very tired of living like this. I don't know what to do. All my efforts to find employment have been fruitless, even things to do from home to earn money have been fruitless. Keeping other children is definitely out of the question for several reasons.
My wants, move to Hawaii, it's always warm. Be out of debt...we haven't had credit cards in 10 years...Have enough money every month to pay the bills, buy groceries and gas, go to the doctor as needed, purchase medication, pay my tithes, actually be able to afford a vacation and take one.
I know, I am not supposed to want things. I have always wanted to help people and do. I want my settlements but God apparently still doesn't think I deserve them even though they will help so, so many people. Settlements is just a name I call them.
So, the way it is right now is I will be sitting in the dark with no way to communicate or travel or purchase groceries or anything else with it 20 degrees outside. But I do have my run-down 1/2 insulated mobile home to live in. And since we are on well water we won't have water or be able to flush the toilet when the electric is shut off. I don't know what will happen to my grandchild because she won't be able to stay here with no heat and electricity.
