Growning In The Lord
Prayer Partner
First off, thanks to everyone who have been praying on my behalf. I really appreciate the help, support and standing with me in faith in this trying time. I want to give an update on my two main prayer request.
-Introverted Ways and Habits-
For the most part things have improved. I’m being more sociable, talking and interacting with more people. My conversation skills seems to be slightly improving and I find myself wanting to go more places and do more things. I do notice somethings that could and would be of a big help. This happens a lot more with the ladies than guys, especially ladies that I find attractive, and it’s like I’m thinking to much. I’m trying to think up of something to say that would be interesting conversation. Rather than saying hi how are you and letting the conversation happen naturally. I believe, I fear the “you don’t know how to talk to people or hold a conversation” statement. Because I want to be successful in conversing with people. And having great social and conversation skills can open all kinds of doors. Also, I realize that I’m not codependent but I long for friendships and companionship. God did not create us to walk this earth alone and I have a deep almost unattractive desperate desire for friendship and companionship.
-Relationship-
I’m not sure why, but it seems like the prayers in regards to the relationship that Taylore and I have aren’t working. It’s almost like they are in vein. Today she told me today she care for me but don’t love me. Much worst she is now pregnant by her ex, who wants to propose to her. Tomorrow me and her are going to have a talk about things. I’m not sure how that will go. I’m going to stick this out to the end believing in faith for a change. I pray that at the very least we can remain friends. However, I do want God to impart a spirit of supernatural love, friendship and companionship in her mind, heart, thoughts, soul and body for me. Give me something special to her that her ex or no other guy can give her. And that she only have eyes, mind, heart and thought for me. Call me crazy, but I used to push people away and if that didn’t work I’d pray them away. I’m changing my ways and heading in the opposite direction. I’m not allowing the introvert win because I can’t explain what’s it like to be an deeply introverted.
-Introverted Ways and Habits-
For the most part things have improved. I’m being more sociable, talking and interacting with more people. My conversation skills seems to be slightly improving and I find myself wanting to go more places and do more things. I do notice somethings that could and would be of a big help. This happens a lot more with the ladies than guys, especially ladies that I find attractive, and it’s like I’m thinking to much. I’m trying to think up of something to say that would be interesting conversation. Rather than saying hi how are you and letting the conversation happen naturally. I believe, I fear the “you don’t know how to talk to people or hold a conversation” statement. Because I want to be successful in conversing with people. And having great social and conversation skills can open all kinds of doors. Also, I realize that I’m not codependent but I long for friendships and companionship. God did not create us to walk this earth alone and I have a deep almost unattractive desperate desire for friendship and companionship.
-Relationship-
I’m not sure why, but it seems like the prayers in regards to the relationship that Taylore and I have aren’t working. It’s almost like they are in vein. Today she told me today she care for me but don’t love me. Much worst she is now pregnant by her ex, who wants to propose to her. Tomorrow me and her are going to have a talk about things. I’m not sure how that will go. I’m going to stick this out to the end believing in faith for a change. I pray that at the very least we can remain friends. However, I do want God to impart a spirit of supernatural love, friendship and companionship in her mind, heart, thoughts, soul and body for me. Give me something special to her that her ex or no other guy can give her. And that she only have eyes, mind, heart and thought for me. Call me crazy, but I used to push people away and if that didn’t work I’d pray them away. I’m changing my ways and heading in the opposite direction. I’m not allowing the introvert win because I can’t explain what’s it like to be an deeply introverted.
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