We hear the deep sorrow and weariness in your heart, and we want you to know that you are not alone in this struggle. The enemy *does* prowl like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8), but we serve a God who is greater, who has already overcome the world (John 16:33). What you experienced today was not just a series of unfortunate events—it was spiritual warfare, and the fact that you recognized it and turned to prayer in the midst of it is a testament to the Holy Spirit working in you. You may feel weak, but His strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).
First, let us address the temptation you mentioned. The desire for food is not sinful in itself—God provides for our needs (Matthew 6:31-33)—but when that desire becomes a stumbling block or leads us into compromise, we must examine our hearts. You said, *"No more sitting with whom the enemy sends,"* and this is wise. The Bible warns us, *"Do not be deceived: ‘Evil company corrupts good morals’"* (1 Corinthians 15:33). Even if you were kind and discerning, the enemy will use any opening, any moment of vulnerability, to pull you away from God’s best. This is why we must be sober and vigilant, clinging to the Word and to prayer as our lifeline. You also mentioned feeling guilty for "giving in to the flesh." Repentance is good—it turns our hearts back to God—but do not let the enemy heap condemnation on you. Jesus said, *"Neither do I condemn you. Go your way. From now on, sin no more"* (John 8:11). His mercy is new every morning (Lamentations 3:22-23). Receive it, and let it strengthen you to walk forward in victory.
As for the attacks you faced—being watched, nearly robbed, falsely accused, and humiliated—we grieve with you over the injustice of it. It is painful to be misunderstood, especially when you were simply trying to meet basic needs. But remember what Jesus said: *"Blessed are you when people reproach you, persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven"* (Matthew 5:11-12). This does not mean the pain is invalid, but it *does* mean that God sees, He knows, and He will vindicate you in His time. You are not defined by the opinions of others or even by the enemy’s schemes. You are defined by Christ’s love for you.
You also expressed regret over not reading God’s Word enough and feeling distant from Him. This is a common struggle, but it is never too late to return. The Psalmist cried out, *"My soul clings to you. Your right hand upholds me"* (Psalm 63:8). When we feel too weak to hold on, *He* holds us. Start small: open the Bible to a single verse, even if it’s just one, and let the Holy Spirit speak to you through it. Jesus is the Bread of Life (John 6:35)—He will satisfy your hunger far more than any earthly food ever could.
Lastly, you said, *"I don’t feel like doing anything anymore."* We understand this weariness, but we urge you: do not isolate yourself. The enemy wants you to retreat in despair, but God calls you to community, to His body, where you can be encouraged and strengthened. *"Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up"* (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10). Even if it’s just reaching out to a brother or sister in Christ, or coming before the Lord in raw honesty as you’ve done here, *keep seeking Him.*
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother/sister to You, knowing that You are near to the brokenhearted and save those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Lord, we ask that You would bind every scheme of the enemy against them. Rebuke the devourer in Jesus’ name, and command every spirit of theft, accusation, and shame to flee. Father, we pray for supernatural strength to rise up in them—a strength that is not their own, but Yours, that they may stand firm in the evil day (Ephesians 6:13).
Lord, we ask for forgiveness where they have stumbled, and we thank You that Your mercy triumphs over judgment (James 2:13). Restore to them the joy of Your salvation (Psalm 51:12), and renew a right spirit within them. Help them to hunger and thirst for righteousness, not just for food, knowing that You alone satisfy (Matthew 5:6).
We pray for divine protection over them as they go about their daily tasks. Surround them with Your angels, Lord, and let no weapon formed against them prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Give them discernment to recognize the enemy’s tactics and wisdom to walk in Your paths. Father, we also ask that You would provide for their needs—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. You are Jehovah Jireh, the God who provides (Genesis 22:14). Let them experience Your provision in tangible ways, that their faith may be strengthened.
Most of all, Lord, draw them closer to You. When they feel too weary to pray, let the Holy Spirit intercede with groanings too deep for words (Romans 8:26). Remind them that they are more than conquerors through Christ (Romans 8:37), and that nothing—no accusation, no theft, no humiliation—can separate them from Your love (Romans 8:38-39).
We declare peace over their mind and heart in Jesus’ name. Let them rest in You, trusting that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28). Give them the grace to forgive those who wronged them, just as You have forgiven us. And Lord, if there is any bitterness or resentment taking root, uproot it now by Your Spirit.
We thank You, Father, that You are faithful, even when we are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13). We trust You to restore, redeem, and renew our brother/sister in every area of their life. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
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One last encouragement: You are not too far gone. You are not beyond God’s reach. The fact that you are grieving over your stumbles shows that the Holy Spirit is at work in you. Keep pressing into Him. *"Let us therefore draw near with boldness to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy, and may find grace for help in time of need"* (Hebrews 4:16). You *will* overcome, not by your strength, but by His. Stand firm. You are loved.