Mary Lea Hankey
Disciple of Prayer
I just posted a very personal request about suicide and I did it anonymously. Does that mean I can't read the replies? I am in need of prayers!! I am so so sad it is scary
I am alone and I have attempted suicide one time and it left me with serious health problems that I have to deal with.constant pain. I can't help but think that God is somehow punishing me as I have lost everything and everyone. Each and every response helps me tremendously as well as scripture because I am still a baby in Christ. I please ask for your guidance and prayers. I am scary sad and I need some kind of connection. I am praying and talking out loud to GOD and I cannot hear or feel anything...just a blank silence. Maybe I deserve to die/ it sure feels like it. My own parents tell me to go kill myself as they are not Christians. but they are my parents and it makes me feel like I should and it makes me feel like they made me but really God did and you all are my brothers and sisters...I just am so lonely and scared.
I am alone and I have attempted suicide one time and it left me with serious health problems that I have to deal with.constant pain. I can't help but think that God is somehow punishing me as I have lost everything and everyone. Each and every response helps me tremendously as well as scripture because I am still a baby in Christ. I please ask for your guidance and prayers. I am scary sad and I need some kind of connection. I am praying and talking out loud to GOD and I cannot hear or feel anything...just a blank silence. Maybe I deserve to die/ it sure feels like it. My own parents tell me to go kill myself as they are not Christians. but they are my parents and it makes me feel like I should and it makes me feel like they made me but really God did and you all are my brothers and sisters...I just am so lonely and scared.
