Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I wish I was more confident in my-self. I want to ask someone out on a date, but every time I go up to them I can't do it. I feel inferior because I don't really fit in. I don't understand. Every once in a while a girl seems to show interest in me, and I ask them on a date, and sometimes they say yes. I get excited and tell my firnds I fially got a date, then she never calls, I never see her again, and then I have to tell my friends, I was wrong. I get excited then it goes wrong and then I feel rejected, betrayed, hurt. It hurts, and I ask why and never get a clear answer. My Dad tells me that it happens and I should not let it bother me. No matter how much I tell myself, not to get excited, or afterwords not to be to botherd by it, it makes it worse. If I don't have any success then how can I be confident. I'm hurting. I feel lonely, and confussed. My counsoler says I need to fit in somewhere, maybe with a mens group of varing ages, but there is not one at my church. I don't bother talking about my feelings with my Dad because he gets frustrated and loses patients with me. I honestly don't know what to do. It so hard for me to pray and seek when even God seems not to care. I know He cares, but I never seem to see it, or feel it. I feel like I've been in this storm foever. I wish it would just end. Maybe if I had been on a date or two, I would feel confident that there was a women out there for me. why do I feel like this? Why do I feel so alone? Why is it when I need God most he seems so far away? I don't even know what I need prayer for, I just know I need prayer. I need it know. I need to hear God's voice. No one else's. God's voice. God's voice is the only thing that can calm this raging storm of anxiety and termoil inside me. You know that feeling you get where you just wanna go bang your head against a wall just to get it to stop? I feel like that now. Please pray for me. God bless you all.
