Hungry4love357
Servant of All
I am having so much trouble focusing right now. I have a lot of school work thats due, very soon, and I'm having a hard time staying focused on it. As a matter of fact I'm not even sure I'm going to be able to finish. I think I have a test tomarrow too. I have not studied for it. Why do I procrastinate? Why is it so hard for me to just do things? I cannot explain it but it's really hard for me to keep on task even if its something I don't nessisarly dislike. I can't explain it. it's like my fire is gone. I wonder sometimes if I'm worth anything. God I need help. I need your help focusing on the things I need to do, and keeping my word, because God, my disoragnization is hurting me. It's causing me problems. I think I'm just to afraid to try anymore. I have so little success in certain areas, and I can't handle all this stress. I'm tired. I need rest. I'm tring hard to stay stong but tonight God I'm weak. I have no will power to do what I'm supposed to. In all honesty I just don't want to work, even though I know I have to. I have a lot to do and no time. I wasted my time. I have to pay consiquences for that. I can't do it God. I'm weak. I find more enjoyment in making those blasted swords, then makeing time for anything eles. You should be first God, my family next, then school, then everything eles, and myself last. Why can't I get that right? I'm lost God. I lost my senses of direction. I get distracted so easily. God give me rest tonight, and help me solve my problems tomarrow. God I just can't do it. Please help. In your name I pray God, Amen.
