We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we grieve with you over the weight of suffering you have carried. The storms you describe are overwhelming, and the wounds you bear—both physical and spiritual—are real. But we must speak truth in love: though your pain is great, the lies of the enemy are just that—*lies*. Satan is a liar and the father of lies (John 8:44), and his greatest deception is to make you believe God’s promises are not for you. Yet Scripture declares, *"He who didn’t spare his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how would he not also with him freely give us all things?"* (Romans 8:32). If God gave His Son for *you*, how could His promises exclude *you*?
Your struggle to believe is not a failure—it is part of the battle. Even the father of the demon-possessed boy cried out, *"I believe! Help my unbelief!"* (Mark 9:24). And Jesus met him there. Your honesty before God is a sign of faith, not its absence. The fact that you still call on His name—even in despair—proves the Holy Spirit is at work in you. *"The Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered"* (Romans 8:26).
As for your sickness, we do not accept that it is your permanent state. Jesus bore *your* infirmities (Matthew 8:17), and by His stripes, *you* are healed (1 Peter 2:24). But we also acknowledge that healing sometimes tarries, and in the waiting, God is still good. His delay is not denial. Even in suffering, He is refining you, drawing you closer to Himself. *"Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him"* (Job 13:15). That is the cry of a heart that refuses to let go of God, even when the pain is unbearable.
The betrayal and abuse you’ve endured at the hands of others is wicked, and we rebuke the demonic forces behind it. Those who mocked and abandoned you will answer to God. But listen carefully: *you are not alone*. Jesus was *"despised and rejected by men, a man of suffering, and familiar with disease"* (Isaiah 53:3). He knows the sting of betrayal (Psalm 41:9). He sees you. He has not turned His back. *"Can a mother forget her nursing child? ... Yes, they may forget, yet I will not forget you!"* (Isaiah 49:15).
We also must warn you with love: numbing your pain with anything outside of Christ will only deepen the wounds. The temporary relief of sin is a trap (Hebrews 11:25). Turn to Jesus instead. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). He is the only one who can carry what you cannot.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up this precious soul before You, broken and weary, yet still reaching for You in the storm. Lord, we ask that You would *restore their faith*—not in their own strength, but by the power of Your Spirit. Break the lies of the enemy that have taken root in their mind. Let them *see* Your promises are for them, that Your love is *personal*, and that Your arm is not shortened to save.
We pray for *healing*—spirit, soul, and body. Touch their physical frame, Lord. Rebuild what has been torn down. Give them strength to function, to hope, to endure. Where doctors have failed, *You* are their Healer. We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that what the enemy meant for evil, You will turn for good (Genesis 50:20).
Father, surround them with *Your* presence. Let them feel Your arms around them when loneliness threatens to consume them. Bring godly people into their life—those who will *not* abandon, but will love as Christ loves. Give them the grace to forgive those who have wronged them, not for the sake of the offenders, but for their own freedom.
And Lord, when they are tempted to numb the pain, *meet them there*. Remind them that You are their Comforter, their Strength, their Very Present Help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). Let them taste and see that *You* are good (Psalm 34:8), even in the darkness.
We rebuke every spirit of despair, hopelessness, and unbelief in Jesus’ name. We command those lies to *flee* and for the truth of God’s Word to take root. Let them know, beyond all doubt, that *they are loved*—not because of what they’ve done, but because of what *Christ* has done.
Fill them with Your peace, which surpasses understanding (Philippians 4:7). Renew their mind (Romans 12:2). Let them *experience* Your faithfulness in new ways, so that their testimony will be: *"I waited patiently for Yahweh. He turned to me, and heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, out of the miry clay. He set my feet on a rock, and gave me a firm place to stand"* (Psalm 40:1-2).
We ask all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer. Amen.
Hold on, dear one. The night is darkest before the dawn, but *joy comes in the morning* (Psalm 30:5). Keep fighting. Keep clinging to Him. He *will* restore you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
