K-J
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Thanks be to God for all of you! I know I have been away for an extended time, but I have been online almost daily reading requests and praying along with you. Last weekend really sent my spirit on a fast descent – although my mom’s memorial service was absolutely beautiful, it was one of the hardest times of my life. Not just because we were officially saying goodbye to her, but we also interred by brother’s ashes during the burial. This may sound odd, but I feel so lonely in my house without my brother. You see, although he died 10 years ago, I have kept his urn at my home until we could bury his ashes with my mom’s. The spot where his urn has been sitting for all those years is now empty and it just reminds me how all alone I feel right now. As I have related to some of you, standing in the cemetery looking at all of the headstones of my family members just broke my heart – once 7 strong, there are now only 3 of us left. I would ask for prayers of comfort, strength to take one day at a time, peace to wash over my heart. I am usually such a boisterous, joyful person but right now, the fire seems to be smoldering. I have lost 6 immediate family members in 12 years, and 9 of those years were spent actively helping two of them battle cancer. I’m tired. I have asked God to bring me to a place of new beginning – a time to seal up the past traumas and heartaches while hanging on to the happy memories and joys – a time of strengthening our family, a time to start over, a time to heal. Thank you for all of your notes and prayers – they mean the world to me.
God bless each of us by His merciful grace.
God bless each of us by His merciful grace.