We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we stand with you before the throne of grace, lifting your cry to the Father who loves you unconditionally. The pain of loss—your marriage, your sense of purpose, even your connection to prayer—is not unnoticed by God. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came that you might have life and have it abundantly (John 10:10). The path you walked into darkness was a snare, but the Lord is calling you out of it, even now. You are not abandoned, nor is His Spirit truly far from you. The very fact that you feel this despair is evidence that the Holy Spirit is still convicting your heart, drawing you back to the light.
First, we must address the gravity of what you nearly entered. The occult is not merely a misguided pursuit—it is an abomination before God, a direct rebellion against His sovereignty. Deuteronomy 18:10-12 warns, *"There shall not be found with you anyone who makes his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, one who uses divination, one who practices sorcery, or an enchanter, or a sorcerer, or a charmer, or a consulter with a familiar spirit, or a wizard, or a necromancer. For whoever does these things is an abomination to Yahweh."* The enemy you sought for power has no authority over you unless you grant it. But Jesus has already disarmed the powers and principalities through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15). You must renounce every tie to the occult—every vow, every invitation, every piece of information shared—out loud, in the name of Jesus. The blood of Christ is your protection, and His name is your authority.
Your struggle with prayer is not a sign that God has withdrawn from you, but that the enemy is attempting to isolate you. The thief comes to steal your voice, your confidence, and your hope. But the Lord says, *"Call to me, and I will answer you, and will show you great and mighty things which you don’t know"* (Jeremiah 33:3). Even if you can only whisper His name, He hears you. The Holy Spirit intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words (Romans 8:26). You are not alone in this battle. We join our faith with yours, declaring that the spirit of heaviness is lifted, and the garment of praise replaces it (Isaiah 61:3).
The anger you feel is a symptom of the spiritual warfare raging around you. Ephesians 4:26-27 warns, *"Be angry, and don’t sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your wrath, and don’t give place to the devil."* Unresolved anger gives the enemy a foothold, but the Lord offers you His peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). You must surrender this anger to Him, asking Him to heal the wounds beneath it—the rejection, the betrayal, the fear of not being enough. Jesus was despised and rejected so that you would never have to carry that burden alone (Isaiah 53:3-5).
Your marriage is a sacred covenant, and we grieve with you over its loss. But God is the restorer of broken things. Joel 2:25 promises, *"I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten."* If reconciliation is His will, He will make a way. If not, He will heal your heart and lead you into a new season of His purpose. Either way, you must forgive—yourself for the choices you made, and others who may have contributed to this pain. Unforgiveness is a chain that binds you to the past, but Christ came to set you free (John 8:36).
You mentioned feeling as though God took His Spirit from you, but the Word assures us that the Holy Spirit is our seal and guarantee until the day of redemption (Ephesians 1:13-14). The Lord does not abandon His children. Psalm 34:18 says, *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."* Your brokenness is not the end of your story—it is the beginning of His restoration. The prodigal son thought he was too far gone, but the Father ran to meet him the moment he turned back (Luke 15:20). That same Father is running toward you now.
We must also address the absence of Jesus’ name in your plea. There is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). It is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you have never surrendered your life to Him, now is the time. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you will be saved (Romans 10:9). If you have walked with Him before but strayed, return to Him. He is faithful and just to forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother who is crying out in the darkness. Lord, You see every tear, every fear, and every moment of despair he has endured. We declare that the enemy has no claim on him, for he belongs to You. In the mighty name of Jesus, we break every chain of occult involvement, every curse, and every lie that has taken root in his mind. We renounce every ungodly tie and cancel every assignment of the enemy against his life. Father, we ask that You would send Your angels to encamp around him, to guard his heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Psalm 91:11).
Lord, we ask that You would restore his ability to pray. Where the enemy has stolen his voice, we declare that the Holy Spirit is breathing new life into his spirit. Remind him that prayer is not about perfection, but about relationship—You long to hear from him, even if it is just a whisper. Fill him with a hunger for Your Word and a thirst for Your presence. Let him know that You are not far from him, but that You are drawing near to him as he draws near to You (James 4:8).
Father, we ask for healing over his marriage. If it is Your will, restore what has been broken. If not, bring healing to his heart and lead him into the future You have prepared for him. Remove the spirit of anger and replace it with Your peace. Heal the wounds of rejection and abandonment, and let him know that he is fully known and fully loved by You.
We declare that this is a season of breakthrough. The locusts have not had the final say—You are restoring the years they have stolen. Let him see Your hand at work in his life, and let his testimony become a beacon of hope for others who are lost in the darkness. We thank You for Your faithfulness, even when we are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13). We thank You that You are working all things together for his good, because he loves You and is called according to Your purpose (Romans 8:28).
We ask all these things in the powerful, matchless name of Jesus Christ, the name that is above every name, the name that breaks every chain. Amen.
You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. The Lord is fighting for you, even when you cannot fight for yourself. Take one step toward Him today—open Your Bible, even if it is just to read Psalm 23. Let His Word be a lamp to your feet and a light to your path (Psalm 119:105). Surround yourself with believers who can pray with you and encourage you. The road to restoration begins with a single step, and the Lord will meet you there. You are loved more than you know.
I can't pray and if I do it's for seconds and I lose interest, the occult people have every information about me, I'm so scared and nothing is working in my life I feel angry for no reason and to make matters worse is I can't pray even when I feel like, please 
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