Some things are standing out in the present. looking

[DirkGodsChild]

Some things are standing out in the present. looking back on my life I prayed for salvation at the age of five, I was raised i the Church. But something concerning me Is at the young age of 14 i feel into peer pressure and smoked pot. On from that moment I lived the life of a lost man in an abusive party-crowd. I nearly tried every drug, drank like a fish. Lost my virginity. This all lasted from ages 14-20. The main reason this is concerning me is the fact that I believe I was a Christian before all those things. And looking at the bibles warnings for Christians who do such things. I wonder if at some point I rejected grace. I didn’t consciously or verbally from any memory but maybe with my actions? I Feel like i’ve had no answer from God in prayer for not just recent, but it’s been years I’ve felt unable to pray. Like God’s not listening. I know that the bible says some illnesses-in my case mental are caused from sin and others are designed to show God’s glory that weren’t caused by any specific sin. With the way I’m feeling disconnected from God and unable to stop doing certain things. like bottling in my emotions and lusting after things that make me feel good, If this could be the results of the sin I participated in when I was young. 1 John talks about a sin unto death. Could it be possible that my mental state is an incurable result of God letting me experience the consequences of my sin? Never the less his communication is the primary thing at the moment. I feel like I have no assurance of my salvation. My standing with God seems Non existant
Please Dearly keep me in your prayers.

 

[Prayer boy]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[WingsofaDove]

I would take some time and sit down , ask God in Jesus name to forgive you. He is merciful and forgiving, especially if we are truly sorry, which you are. It would be bad if your heart were callous and you just did not care. Ask him to "direct your steps". He can help you come back to him and live a life that pleases him. Also, when asking for forgiveness, check yourself to see if you need to forgive anyone. God forgives us as we forgive others.

 

[Lee George]

I pray May God guide you and hear your petitions in Jesus name Amen

 

[Isabelle10]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

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