mattosan
Account Closed
I dont know how to longggggggg suffer and be OK with it...this is driving me nuts..i have no life really, well i guess thats not really true..but it sure seems that way sometimes...I know it has to be much worse to have your spouse leave you for someone else and i am so glad that im not in that situation..but loveing someone who told me everyday that they loved me and then one day decided they are not happy and just shut me out and kicked me to the curb after 14 yrs is really hard to take...i love my wife and want to believe god is telling me to hold on but the proccess is heart breaking and takes soooo long and she says she is done so why am i waiting, hopeing , hurting, standing for someone who doesnt love me... i want to be celibrated not tolerated...lord help me to place my hope in you...and if this isnt going to happen and I read you wrong then please show me ..let me off the hook ...and let me heal or at least let the proccess of healing start....lord i love my wife but this eternal holding pattern is running me out of steam..lord i need your faith to hold on because i cant do it in my own strength....