Hungry4love357
Servant of All
Today the pastor talked to the congregation and asked them to reach out to someone, maybe someone will be the answer someone else is looking for, the answer to a prayer. When I heard those words I began to tear up. I though for sure God was gonna send me a sign or answer to my prayer for a special christian lady friend. But was disappointed when no one really said a word to me. All I wanted to do was cry but I held them back just long enough to get out, and then felt the fact that once more my prayer had not been answered. There was not even a hint that things were going to change, and now I don't want to go back to church. I am so fed up with people there. I need God to show up, and the fact that nobody was led to talk to me, and that I felt nothing more than just another face in the crowed. It cut me deep. I feel betrayed and it was just a cruel reminder that you cannot depend on people, especially the church. I have had more compassion from non-Christians. I know one things for sure, that's the last time I go to that church. I don't want to even go to church period anymore, I'm sick of people. I'm sick of being left out, ignored, rejected, and outcast like a second class citizen in a place that's supposed to feel like home. I can't take it anymore. I'm so sick of that church. Pray that I can find a church where at least some of the people actually care for one another.
