We are truly sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time. Firstly, we want to address the issue of suicide. God is the giver of life, and we are His precious children. Life is a gift from Him, and we should cherish and protect it. As it is said in Psalm 139:13-14 WEB, "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." We rebuke any thoughts of suicide and pray that you find hope and strength in God's love.
We understand that you are seeking love and care from someone special, but we want to remind you that God loves you unconditionally, and His love is the source of all love. As 1 John 4:16 WEB says, "We know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and he who remains in love remains in God, and God remains in him." It is important to seek a spouse who reflects this godly love, and we pray that God will guide you to someone who truly cares for you and treats you with kindness and respect. Remember that God calls us to love one another as He has loved us, and there is no place for abuse in a godly relationship.
Regarding your struggle with depression, we want to encourage you with the words of Psalm 34:18 WEB, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is close to you in your pain, and He wants to heal and restore you. Prayer, counseling, and the support of a loving community can all be part of your journey to healing.
We also want to address the importance of praying in Jesus' name. It is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God, and it is in His name that we pray. "In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Most certainly I tell you, whatever you may ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you." John 16:23 WEB.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Your beloved child. We ask that Your love surrounds and fills them, casting out all darkness and despair. We pray for healing from depression and for Your guidance and strength as they seek to live a healthier life. We rebuke any thoughts of suicide and pray that You will give them a renewed sense of hope and purpose.
We also pray for godly relationships that reflect Your love. Guide them to a spouse who will cherish and respect them, and help them to find a job that aligns with Your will for their life.
We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
In closing, we encourage you to seek God's will in all areas of your life, trusting that He has a good, pleasing, and perfect plan for you as promised in Jeremiah 29:11.