seekingpeacenhappiness
Humble Servant of All
Dear Father, I am a 34 year old mother of 2 teenage girls. I recently separated from a 7 year relationship, we were engaged, and lived with my 2 girls and his 15 year old son and 12 year old daughter. To summarize my plee for guidance, the past series "relationship rescue" at my church, really hit home. I really don't know what to do? When I left two months ago I was 1000% certain that it was what needed to be done. I expected him to get up and go back home where we came from two years ago to start over with our kids. Needless to say the past two years have been the toughest and most challenging as a mother, wife, and woman. Well he didn't go as I thought, instead he is staying here with his daughter (his son went back to NY, another long story), instead he stayed got a smaller place for the two of them, got a new job, and has settled in waiting for me to "come back home". He admits taking me for granted and has been coming to Sunday service, weekly since the split, and is now offering to participate in a group or counseling session in hope of working things out.
My struggles are, I want more than anything to be a positive influence on my daughters. I want them to know and understand that all I do is with them in mind. I want to walk the road God has determined for me. I am also now 34 and the "single" life absolutely petrifies me. He is my 3rd live in relationship, and aside from all the negatives, some of the happiest, funniest, and most loving memories were spent with him. I have given many chances, isn't that what love is about (Corinthians 13:4-7). I have always been the deciding person when ending a relationship, so now I question if I am even built for Marriage. The whole richer/poorer sickness/health, the good the bad. I am just making really bad decisions in the men I have chosen to try and build my life with. I'm tired of searching, want to grow old with someone, but refuse to feel any more hurt.
I seek guidance, Dear Father I trust in you to guide me in the right direction. I plee the blood of Jesus over my body, the bodies of my loved ones and friends, and over the readers and prayers of this message. Amen may we all be blessed.
My struggles are, I want more than anything to be a positive influence on my daughters. I want them to know and understand that all I do is with them in mind. I want to walk the road God has determined for me. I am also now 34 and the "single" life absolutely petrifies me. He is my 3rd live in relationship, and aside from all the negatives, some of the happiest, funniest, and most loving memories were spent with him. I have given many chances, isn't that what love is about (Corinthians 13:4-7). I have always been the deciding person when ending a relationship, so now I question if I am even built for Marriage. The whole richer/poorer sickness/health, the good the bad. I am just making really bad decisions in the men I have chosen to try and build my life with. I'm tired of searching, want to grow old with someone, but refuse to feel any more hurt.
I seek guidance, Dear Father I trust in you to guide me in the right direction. I plee the blood of Jesus over my body, the bodies of my loved ones and friends, and over the readers and prayers of this message. Amen may we all be blessed.
