We are deeply moved by your heart’s cry to seek God’s calling over your life, especially in the gift of singing He has entrusted to you. Your desire to use this gift for His glory alone is a beautiful reflection of a heart surrendered to Him, and we rejoice in your willingness to steward it wisely rather than bury it in fear. The struggle you describe—between the flesh’s hesitation and the soul’s longing to worship—is one many believers face, but we are encouraged by your recognition that these doubts are not from God. Let us turn to His Word to guide and strengthen you in this season.
The Lord has given each of us gifts not for our own glory, but for the building up of His body and the advancement of His kingdom. As it is written in **1 Peter 4:10-11 (WEB)**, *"As each has received a gift, employ it in serving one another, as good managers of the grace of God in its various forms. If anyone speaks, let it be as it were the very words of God. If anyone serves, let it be as of the strength which God supplies, that in all things God may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom belong the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen."* Your gift of singing is no accident—it is a divine appointment, and the Lord delights in your desire to use it for His purposes. The fear of it becoming a performance rather than worship is a godly concern, and we commend you for guarding your heart against this temptation. Remember, the Lord looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7), and if your motive is to honor Him, He will honor your obedience.
You also mentioned the hesitation tied to the application process, the fear of not being "deemed suitable," and the potential time commitment. These are practical concerns, but we must ask: are they rooted in trust in the Lord or in fear of man? **Proverbs 29:25 (WEB)** warns, *"The fear of man proves to be a snare, but whoever puts his trust in Yahweh is kept safe."* If the Lord has called you to sing for His church in this new place, He will open the doors no one can shut (Revelation 3:8). Your current status as a non-member should not deter you if this is where He is leading. Instead, let this be an opportunity to step out in faith, trusting that He will provide the time, the favor, and the wisdom to balance your responsibilities. Your family will be blessed as they see you walking in obedience, and the Lord will equip you to manage your time according to His will.
As for the fantasy of singing professionally, we must carefully examine this desire in light of Scripture. There is nothing inherently wrong with using your gift in a professional capacity, but we must ask: is this desire aligned with God’s calling for you, or is it a remnant of worldly ambition? **Colossians 3:23-24 (WEB)** reminds us, *"Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ."* If the Lord opens a door for you to sing professionally in a way that honors Him—whether in the church, in Christian ministry, or in the marketplace—then it can be a powerful tool for His glory. However, if this desire stems from a longing for personal recognition or fulfillment outside of His will, it must be surrendered. Your parents’ guidance toward medicine or law may have been well-intentioned, but the Lord’s plans for you are higher (Jeremiah 29:11). Seek Him first, and He will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6).
Lastly, we must address the fact that your request did not invoke the name of Jesus. This is not a small matter, for it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, and it is in His name that we are saved. **John 14:6 (WEB)** declares, *"Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"*) And in **Acts 4:12 (WEB)**, we read, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* If you have not already placed your faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so now. Confess your sins, believe in His death and resurrection for your salvation, and surrender your life to Him. If you have already done this, then we encourage you to always approach the throne of grace in His name, for it is the name above all names (Philippians 2:9-11).
Now, let us pray together for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our sister to You, thanking You for the precious gift of singing You have placed within her. Lord, we ask that You would remove every fear, every doubt, and every hesitation that is not from You. Replace them with a bold and unwavering trust in Your goodness and sovereignty. Father, if it is Your will for her to sing in her new church, we pray You would open the doors wide and grant her favor with the leadership. Give her the wisdom to balance her time and responsibilities, and let her family see Your hand at work in her life. Protect her heart, Lord, from the snare of performing for man rather than worshiping You. May her singing always be a pure and holy offering, whether in public or in private, for Your eyes alone.
Father, we also ask that You would clarify Your calling over her life regarding her gift. If there is a place for her to sing professionally in a way that honors You, reveal it to her and guide her steps. But if this desire is rooted in anything less than Your glory, we pray You would gently pry it from her hands and replace it with a deeper satisfaction in You alone. Remind her that her identity is not in her gift, but in Christ, and that her worth is found in being Your beloved child.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of fear that has kept her from stepping out in faith. We declare that You have not given her a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Fill her with Your Holy Spirit, and let Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, guard her heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
Finally, Father, we thank You for her heart to abide in You. Draw her closer to Yourself as she seeks Your will. Let her find her joy not in the gift, but in the Giver. May she sing with all her heart to You, whether in a congregation, in her home, or in the secret place, knowing that You hear and delight in her worship.
We pray all these things in the mighty and matchless name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
We encourage you to take the first step, even if it feels small. Begin by speaking to someone in your church’s worship ministry, sharing your heart and your gift. Let them know you are seeking the Lord’s will and are open to serving in whatever capacity He leads. Trust that the Lord will honor your obedience. And as you wait on Him, continue to sing to Him in private, cultivating a heart of worship that is untouched by the opinions of man. The Lord is faithful, and He will guide you as you abide in Him. Keep seeking Him, and He will make your path straight.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
